Ruminating abt messing up at volunteering

I volunteer at a shelter and I was going to a 6 hour training to get to the next level to be moee hands on and apparently I didnt do well enough for me to go to the next level. I asked the people helping me repeatedly if I did anything wrong and they just said I needed more time (usually it takes abt 8 hours of volunteering to get up to next level training,they said I needed 30hr) i kept asking if I did anything wrong and they kept giving me that answer. I struggled a bit w figuring out the leashes they use and holding it right and such and that might be as to why and im overall an anxious person(though i wasnt really scared of the animals) ,she gave me a small chihuahua to practice w and it went ok but i did forget how to hold it properly once or twice (chihuahua was fine and chill luckily) i do have dogs and experience w them but i dont need to put their leash on thru the door or wnything and they had clip on leashes (you had to loop these over the dogs heads) so i wasnt used to it . I also mightve made a bad impression when I first met the person in charge of my volunteering shift and wore shorts so had to go back (long pants required) and also during this training I went to the café the rescue had for a drink and a bagel bc I hadnt eaten and didnt have time to eat ir and mightvr come back late bc of it. I asked a bazillion times if I did anything wrong or how to do better and they didnt really answer so idk if it was anything in specfici I did or just overall sucking. Idk. I feel really bad and guilty and i cant stop overthinking what could've made me mess up

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Marriucia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21h

Dear Snoopy, volunteering for a pet shelter is a wonderful act of service ! It sounds like you are telling on yourself by admitting you didn’t follow the rules -wearing shorts instead of the required long pants. My question is, do you actually have time to volunteer if there’s not enough time to eat before the training ? It reminds me of the analogy : we’re on an airplane with a baby and the oxygen masks drop down, who gets the oxygen first ? We do otherwise we won’t be able to help the baby. Learning new ways of doing can be stressful. By the way I personally don’t see the trigger in your share. Your story reminds me to find happiness in everyday processes and personal growth rather than waiting for a specific milestone. Anchor yourself in the present moment through daily meditation or deliberate pauses. Celebrate small wins : acknowledge daily progress instead of tying your sense of accomplishment only to large, distant goals. Embrace the process : Let go of rigid expectations and to value the lessons found in the daily grind. Sounds to me like you are on the right path🩷

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 18h

When i wore shorts instead of pants it was my first visit(so a few months before this training ,i sort of forgot to clarify that my bad.) so I went back and rescheduled a week later . I have worn long pants since but I still worry it made a bad first impression. The food was because I was slightly late getting up (it started at 7am,my neighbors had a late night party ) but i probably shouldve gotten something smaller instead of a bagel bc it made things a bit awkward. I did try to follow the rules but I think i keep messing it up a bit and I feel.bad abt it

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 18h

@💗Snoopy🌌 I sort of missed the dress code my first visit which was my bad

Marriucia

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 16h

I listen to Dr McGrath (NOCD) when I want to learn more about OCD symptoms and how to work with them. Also, working with my NOCD therapist has been helpful. When I was young, my GP said : You’re just a person who wants everything to work, in a world where things don’t -something like this but I felt heard. It’s perfectionism. Now, things are better. I appreciate your post ! I hope you can move past the worry about your first impressions. We can forgive ourselves and make amends for our wrongs, which sounds like you have. What others think of us is out of our control. 🪷

💗Snoopy🌌

Date posted: 18h

I misphrased things in my post and nocd doesnt let me edit so for some clarification the short thing happened in April when I first started ,not during this training

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