Anybody want a conversation

How’s everybody day going? Mines is going terrible, I texted my mom and usually I screen record my screen because I think I’m typing my intrusive thoughts and I so happened to run out of space and it stops recording so here I am screenshotting like crazy because here come the thoughts and now over here asking questions that makes me seem paranoid like did you get my other message? Is my other message going through? To see if they’ll bring it up. It’s so frustrating bro why do I have to be the one with ocd

BusyHead13

Date posted: 18h

I’m so sorry, that’s scary

Anonymous

Date posted: 17h

@BusyHead13 I get into these spirals all the time, I try to ignore it the best i can.

BusyHead13

Date posted: 17h

@Anonymous Avoidance can be a compulsion. Maybe look into ERP?

Anonymous

Date posted: 17h

@BusyHead13 I had a therapist but it was so bad she had to discharge me because I needed everyday care and she had to recommend out patient programs. Couldn’t find one that takes my insurance and even though I used this app for therapy they didn’t take my insurance so I was paying out of pocket but I lost my job and I don’t start my new one until September but honestly I’m not even worried about this one anymore because it completely switched rumantions, if you could look at my recent post and help that would make me feel better

Ben84

Date posted: 19h

It is frustrating. Especially when it keeps coming back. Having gone through it about 10 times now, I have some confidence that I can get through it while simultaneously wondering if the time will come when I can't get back up from it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 18h

@Ben84 Exactly, I’m only 22 been dealing with ocd for 3 years. I have so much life ahead of me and it makes me frustrated because I’m sure getting older I’ll look back on these days just how I look back on my younger days and ruminate

Ben84

Date posted: 18h

@Anonymous I'm 41 now and while I can see traces of OCD from the age of 9, it wasn't until I was 14 that I had my first major episode. When I'm feeling good, life can feel really short. When I'm in an episode, life feels almost unbearably long. I can gauge how I'm doing by how far into the future I can see myself.

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