I am so alone right now. I have family and I have friends who love me but they don’t connect with me. They don’t understand me and I feel like I don’t belong. Ocd has made things 100% worse by triggering self esteem issues (bad) and I feel like I get constant kicks in the teeth by everyone in my life. Even people I was close with I feel so distant from. I’m so fed up, I think I’m falling into a depression

I just can’t connect with people because I’m so scared that I’ve lost my good qualities through ocd so I’m so conscious of everything that I say, always trying. I’ve tried to stop trying so hard and to relax but I’ve done it so much that I don’t know how to be me without being anxious anymore. All the people in my life anyway seem to be constantly attacking me - or that’s how it feels anyway. It makes me want to disappear. Sorry for the rant, I just needed to let it out

@harriet221 Same, I tried speaking with my mother and she thinks I'm faking it. I brokedown in front of her as I was describing this mental hell and she just said "you're a freak" and then she says "i guess I wouldn't understand since I'm not mentally SICK as you!!"and....it really hurt. I'm sorry for my rant too

Thank you. I just feel so defeated and feel like not only are things going bad for me literally - as in I’m surrounded by people I don’t even get on with - my brain is on overload. I’ve had months of CBT and I still don’t feel better - pretty much no change has been made. I just don’t think I’m gonna be able to relax and come back with this, without going on meds - which I really don’t want to do. I feel so helpless :( But thank you so much for the support