ocd & weed

i was smoking weed consistently for over a year (started when i met my bf) but im trying to cut back now. i am on meds and was at a good place with my ocd before i started smoking regularly. i really enjoyed how weed made me feel and i liked how it muffled my thoughts. however, smoking as much as i was isn’t healthy and i need to cut back a lot. the problem is that now i am much more present and my ocd is coming back full force it feels like. intrusive thoughts like i haven’t had in years, cant have anything even slightly look off or i have to adjust it 10 times until its “perfect”. every time i drive at night i have a debilitating fear that someone is in my car and is going to strangle me while im driving. it feels like i’m turning into my old self and i cant handle it i don’t want to be consumed by the ocd again, but i also can’t rely on weed to help.

Chicafreakaaa

Date posted: 13h

Fellow ocd haver and weed consumer hereee. You’re not alone with these feelings I think it’s important to not vilify the things that help us but rather embrace it, and especially when it comes to substances, treading carefully so we don’t over do it. I’ve had a period of time where weed made my ocd worse and I didn’t touch it for half a year and I also have had a period where I numb it out and have a horrible episode after getting high everyday for another half of a year. I’m currently working on my relationship with weed and feel that I’m at a better place with recognizing when to not use it and just sit with the discomfort and anxiety because that’s where we break unhealthy habits from forming. I’m actually about to take an edible and relax for the rest of the day lol😵‍💫

flowerboy

Date posted: 13h

@Chicafreakaaa thanks for your reply. my bf is stopping for a month cold turkey but we were smoking multiple times a day, everyday, for a year and it feels too fast for me to just stop altogether. so i’m trying to just start slow, ive already had 3 days off and i did go through lots of sadness and anxiety, but i felt good and i was healthier bc i get the munchies rlly bad from weed which causes me to eat terribly. i want to be able to be ok without weed in a healthy way, so i’m really trying to give myself space to do that.

Chicafreakaaa

Date posted: 13h

@flowerboy I feel youuu with the munchies and unhealthy food. Yeah when I was abusing and not in the best place mentally (mad at everyone close and around me until I could get my weed) I was binge eating crap. Now I try to eat healthier or more in moderation when high to still satisfy. I also had to slowly decrease and I felt horrible at first but practicing mindfulness, using my tools and talking it out with my bf and friends rather than lash out has been helpful 😌

candymanz

Date posted: 13h

Hey, I've been in a similar situation and instead I changed how and when I consumed. It is also worth mentioning that that will happen to any amount of anxiety when stopping weed, so don't take it as a regression. It's more like a spring, and the spring will balance out from shooting out from under the suppression. Maybe try and remind yourself that you didn't have these thoughts on it, so it must not be a true danger and is instead a danger your ocd made up or exacerbated. Remember the relaxed feeling you felt before. Smoking lavender helps also with the nice action of it, same with cbd which won't give you a head high, but will help with physical relaxation

flowerboy

Date posted: 13h

@candymanz thank you for the suggestions, i didn’t even consider doing things that mimic what i liked about smoking. and that’s true, i’m sure i am also feel the effects of doing it less as well.

candymanz

Date posted: 12h

@flowerboy Exactly! While it's not like a pill when coming off, it's still something that helped and made things feel good. It's going to take a bit to readjust, but you got this and you're not alone! I'm about to be having to do the same things soon lol. Peace and love dude

flowerboy

Date posted: 9h

@candymanz thanks! we got this!

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