Pocd ruins everything

If u replied to this last time pls dont I deleted it for that reason. I was out and people that im worried about being attracted to were like everywhere and i was very anxious and trying to keep my head down and walk to tje car and stuff bur then I kept having to sort of look at someone bc i needed to look where I eas walking and they were right there and I was sayinglike im not attracted im not attracted im nor attracted and then i had tne thought 'wait I am kinda attracted actually' and idk what to do bc WHAT. and i felt like it wasnt me but also like idek what im saying it jusr feels gross and horid and idk what's true and ive been trying for 2 days to get my nails done and i js run back to the car bc there's so mant people and ik im lucky to even have the money dor nails but nails are the one thing that make me feel like me so theyre really important for me

StrawberryFr...

Date posted: 20h

Hello! I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. I understand what it feels like to deal with extreme OCD like this. I fell into a very depressive episode this summer and started feeling the symptoms of OCD for the very first time.. and honestly, I started to let it take over my life. Most of my nights were filled with panic attacks and debilitating anxiety. Then most of my days I spent hours doing compulsions. But I did get through it! I know how hard it can be to just continue living life because it can feel like you don't deserve to. However that is a LIE that OCD loves to convince you of. It takes your deepest fears and tries to turn it into your identity. I know it is SO hard, but do not let OCD take everything from you. Go out, do things you enjoy, get your nails done and spend time + laugh with the people you love.. even when your OCD makes you feel like you shouldn't. There is nothing I can say to take this all away, but I really hope you will start to feel better soon. Remember, you're not alone and you WILL get through this, even if it doesn't feel like it right now!

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Date posted: 17h

I really appreciate this thank u :] how did u realise that its not u and its ocd bc it just feels like its me and like im lying about being ocd or something idk

StrawberryFr...

Date posted: 8h

@💤 Of course, I am so glad I could help in some way! The crazy thing is that OCD is known as the doubting disease, so it can literally make you think you don’t have OCD, even though you do. This is called meta OCD and is actually super common. As for the question of how I realized it wasn’t me.. I knew deep down I didn’t actually desire the things I was obsessing over so much. OCD is very ego-dystonic, which are thoughts that don’t align with who you are as a person. The reason that you feel so distressed about it is because it is so the opposite of who you are. But I know that OCD is so convincing that it will be so difficult to believe this. Just remember you’re never alone!

Mitu_001

Date posted: 21h

Hello.I am sorry you feel like this.There was a time when I was like that too.Horrible .Try to get out and stay a bit outside.Try to do breathe exercises ..Idk if it truly helps..With time it gets better.Also can you talk with a therapist? I hope you will feel better soon and get your nails done

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Date posted: 20h

Thank u sm ur very kind :) I was talking to a therapist but she ststted saying weird things and my friend said I shouldn't go back and ive emailed 2 new therapists but they're not answering 🐌

Mitu_001

Date posted: 20h

@💤 Sorry to hear this! Yeah you shouldn't go if she says weird things.I hope they will answer

0542

Date posted: 20h

you’re not a pedo it’s just your ocd trying to trick you!! real pedos wouldn’t be worried about it. tell yourself that you are worthy and are not what your ocd is telling you. 💕 you got this

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