Pls someone respond with any words idc what☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

So my ex and I have had this odd breakup of like “maybe we’ll fix it, maybe not” and I have a strong intuitive feeling that it’ll come back around. However, after instances of blocking each other/going back and forth, etc., he got very upset when I said I went on dates with others and acted like I did something horrible. I know it hurts for an ex to confess that… but still. I told him I wouldn’t anymore, and then he blocked me on everything. So I went on a few more, thinking he didn’t want anything to do with me and that I could take this time to have fun… I’ve stopped now. But I feel guilty, it was like directly after that convo. And today, I just heard from SEVERAL different accounts people being confused if we’re back together because of the way he’s talking about me. Now I feel so guilty. Of course I still love him, and hearing that he talked about me nicely felt good, I wasn’t necessarily seeking a new boyfriend but I felt things for other boys and now I feel awful. I won’t be contacting him YET but I know I have to see him this month at work. And saying “you owe him nothing move on” doesn’t really fit this situation I feel???? Idk…. I can’t deal with this uncertainty. I’ve also had thoughts/a weird feeling regarding another ex and I feel awful. BUT HERES THE THING!! IF YOU GET ANYTHING OUT OF THIS: yes, I know I don’t need to tell him. BUT IF I DID, he’d be very very upset which I feel means something.

Firefly girl

Date posted: Yesterday

If it makes you feel better I did way worse. I hooked up with someone and later had a threesome after my ex dumped me. And feel like I ruined all chances of us working things out bc he was so hurt and upset over that. Last we talked he’s seeing someone new and I blocked him on everything bc even though I hooked up with people first it hurts so much because I still am holding onto hope we can work it out, even though he’s called me a whore and basically friend-zoned me. Anyways, just know going on dates when you’re single is one of the most normal things you can humanely do and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that . I’m not going to tell you to move on but I’m going to tell you I did worse (at least in my exs eyes) and it’s okay to not know where your head is at with this stuff

Firefly girl

Date posted: Yesterday

It’s frustrating because he thinks I don’t love him or didn’t love him because I did it, but it was honestly the opposite and a coping mechanism for me. It’s frustrating that they can’t seem to understand that doing things that a normal single person would do, do not erase our love or feelings for them. Just know you’re definitely not alone in that frustration and I would also feel the need or urge to tell my ex.

sick&tired

Date posted: Yesterday

Hey I’ve seen you post for a while now. I was thinking that learning about healthy relationships in general could be really good for you. Most of us did not grow up learning about respect, healthy communication, boundary setting, consent, etc. I think it’s really important for us all to know what safe and healthy relationships are. I think everyone could benefit from this even if they think they already know about these topics. I say this as someone who has tolerated a lot of mistreatment and abuse and ended up in bad situations especially because OCD has made me doubt my own reality and experiences. Knowing your worth, protecting yourself, etc., should be learned as early as possible and we didn’t all have caregivers or adults who taught us these things. I wish you all the best.

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