Suddenly being confident (?) pls help

Well, I wouldn't say confident, I used to be so sensitive about everything, especially since I grew up in an abusive household, I was extremely perfectionist, I used to control my relationships so much, I would cry day and night if a person blocked me or just stopped talking with me, but now its almost the opposite, I had a really bad mental breakdown (?) between 2025 October and 2026 February, especially because of my ocd I just prayed to god 24/7 to make me normal again, I was really tired of everything, and in 2026 January for once I blocked every friend of mine + relatives, I stopped talking with my parents, and now, 6 months later, even though I unblocked some friends of mine, I still cant bring myself to like them, at their smallest mistakes I start not talking with them "Wait. Why should anyone else's opinion matter? I'm the most important person in my life. I deserve happiness. I don't need these people" - I cant get out of this mindset, its becoming just toxic, I fell in love but after 1 month of trying to get that person, I detached even though I wanted to keep loving them, I started feeling disgusted everytime they came to my mind, but I just dont know, it feels safe Also I used to be a huge empathetic person, but now I really cant care about my friends, their problems, no matter how hard I try, sure I feel empathy for some people but its just a few people It also affects my daily life because this whole mindset of "everything is fake, people are fake and nobody loves anyone, so why should u force urself to feel this way?" making me feel sick and disgusted even when I try hanging out with people Im supposed to like It's not only relationships, I cant enjoy my hobbies like I used to, I dont know how fast my days go, but I just feel like everything is pointless And btw I still care a lot about what other people think about me and especially my appearance, even though I act like I dont, idk whats wrong with me

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Date posted: 10h

Would jaded and discouraged better describe what you're feeling? I think there are a lot of other people who feel something similar to what you have described, so take heart in that you are not alone. There is a LOT of conflict bombarding us all every day, and it gets overwhelming. Social media can be the worst, because it can train us to relate to others in unhealthy ways. It can spur us to compare ourselves with others who APPEAR to "have it all together". But a lot of those kind of people are only posting the stuff they want you to know, they are not posting the broken reality of their own lives. And then there are people who post a LOT of negativity. They can get your attention turned so much to everything that is wrong, that it can get hard to remember all the little things that are right in the world. "I have a job, and therefore an income." "I have a roof over my head, clothes on my body, and food to eat." Seemingly little things like that can make all the difference for change in perspective! I'm not sure where your mindset is at at the moment on this idea, but, sometimes when we do something kind for others without expecting anything in return, it can help. It gets our eyes off ourselves and our problems, and onto making a positive difference in others' lives. Not that we are stuffing our problems and not acknowledging or addressing them, but we're choosing to actively pursue healthier perspective in spite of our problems. Then as our perspective starts to change, we might then be able to realize something healthy we couldn't realize before, and apply it to our situation. Do you think this could be a help? I hope it can! I'm rooting for you! And I will pray for you as well, that God will guide you through this challenging time in your life! He loves you!

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