My ocd is latching onto a horrible event

I know I always post about exes and the scenario sounds stupid, but I have ROCD. My brain won’t stop thinking about the what if in the scenario and it’s gonna sound really bad.. recently my ex and I have been hanging out, and he told me how much he loves me and how I shouldn’t date anyone else and how he won’t either because he’s holding out hope for us. He told me so many times that he loved me and was even unsure to ask if I still loved him the same way. Then a couple days later, I accidentally ran into one of his friends at the mall. She said that my ex was around, and assuming that we were still on good terms as he was in love with me and we have been hanging out, I tried to call and say I was there too to say hello. He blocked me in front of everyone.. he told everyone I was crazy, he wanted nothing to do with me, I was forcing him to sleep with me, I was stalking him, just HORRIBLE things about me, leaving out the part where he said that we were gonna make it work less than 48 hours before that. Then I realized after he had told everyone this, he decided to unblock me today. I only realized that because I called him to check, and blocked him myself immediately after. I know this sounds like dumb drama, but my heart is broken and my brain is fried. Who is he lying to? Why is he lying? Out of all of us who is he really manipulating and who is he being honest to? My OCD loves the fact that he unblocked me, and I feel like a horrible person for the things that I’ve been feeling in the background of all this (my last post discusses someone else). He EVEN TOLD MY OTHER EX whom he didn’t like that I was crazy and he hated me in the middle of all of this. I’m so distraught and I don’t know what to do now.. he was so convincing. I’m so young and stupid and heartbroken. Please help.

butterfly2459

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi! I have ROCD and trust me when I say, I understand how much it sucks. I ALSO have some pretty messy exes and ex drama. It’s easy to let our OCD into this part of our lives because that’s what it does, it tries to solve problems. But the truth is, sometimes people are just not good. After reading what happened, it doesn’t seem like they were a great person by any means. And it may sound scary, but sometimes bad people create problems that we have NO business fixing. So sit with the discomfort for now, and find reassurance in the fact that how he is acting has NOTHING to do with you or your actions. You did nothing wrong. Manipulative people exist, cause problems, and lie, but that is NOT your problem to fix. You know yourself, and I’m confident enough to say most people are pretty good at seeing through manipulation lies, so don’t stress about that. Again, you did nothing wrong, and fixing problems other people started HAS never and WILL never be your responsibility. Have a self care night honey and do something that makes you feel like your best self🧖‍♀️🫶😴

Tea and Honey

Date posted: Yesterday

I think it was a terrible thing that he did that to you. Why would he be kind to you one day and then publicly mean the next day??!! I really think that he is not good enough for you. You don't need to tolerate that behavior.

omamori

Date posted: Yesterday

As someone with OCD, you definitely care about being a good person, but it seems like he doesn’t care whatsoever about doing mean things. By your nature you care TOO much about it while he barely cares at all!! I think you deserve a lot better

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