So I told myself "I am a bisexual and I know I still like boys and there's nothing wrong with finding girls attractive too" I don't know what it was but i felt anxious but at the same time a kind of relief. I think I'm a bit more comfortable right now even though it did make me cringe a bit.

I know I'm gonna say that and then freak out even more. I know I should control

I don't want to but I'm trying to get out of this mess after all :(

Dude! For me it didn't even last 2 hours

@lemondew Damn, i kinda was relieved that my relieve over being bi was over because i thought i was going crazy and i thoight why am i relieved bycalling myself bi? So yeah

@hocdgirlsummer Same but i strated panicking inside immediately

You’re really doing a compulsion to try to eliminate doubt and anxiety around not knowing for sure by claiming what you fear as true based on little to no evidence. Any evidence you might claim you have you will still dispute if it’s real or not so you should bank on it being ocd

@evkrey Oh thank you I didn't know that this was a compulsion as well. I did it out of anger to reduce my anxiety. Not even 2hrs in and I started doing more compulsions.

@lemondew Yeah haha anything you do (or think) to alleviate the anxiety is a compulsion. It’s all ocd

@lemondew Specifically around your theme

@evkrey Oh thanks. But I really can't diffrentiate between compulsions and uncertainty. I also ask myself do I have HOCD or am I faking it or am I doing it to relate to others? Could you help me or advice?

@lemondew This is common to HOCD. The confusion, doubt, uncertainty etc or not knowing for sure. You’re really not afraid of the content, what you really hate is the underlying feelings when you face your triggers bc you’ve attached meaning to those feelings/triggers. Instead of worrying about is it hocd or not, is it a compulsion or not, you should focus on living your life in spite of the thoughts and focus on the sensations in your body when you feel the fear rather than the content of the thoughts. And let those sensations make you feel uncomfortable, in fact, desire discomfort, to teach your brain that it can handle these feelings without needing to check or reassure yourself it’s just ocd or not. Do this for now if you don’t have an ocd specialist and you will start the beginning of the healing process

@evkrey Ok thank you very much :). But will doing this also fix some other problems like loss of attraction and excitement?

@lemondew Idk I’m still in recovery for hocd but I have noticed my attraction comes back with ex partners at the least, but in general I think in doing exposures I have a better grip on who I’m really attracted to. Still not 100% sure but I’m learning this as I go

@evkrey I don't feel any romantic attraction to boys but I still like thinking of them sexually. Im afraid of losing this sexual attraction too. A new thought that came into my mind is I like both sexes and I want to be with both. I don't know what to actually do about it