First post👋

I’m new on this app, I’m 20 years old, and I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety around 2017-2018 and OCD and BPD in 2023. I feel alone, 24/7. It doesn’t matter who I’m around, I just have an overwhelming fear that no matter what, I will never be happy. I constantly feel like a burden to the people around me and try my hardest to get them to sympathize without trying to sound like I’m shifting the blame on my diagnosis. It’s really hard, as if people don’t believe me, or care to understand? Or that mental illness just isn’t real? I don’t know. I don’t have any health insurance and I really need a therapist, so I’m hoping this app can be a helpful outlet. I guess I just want to hear everyone’s advice and stories, and if it’s possible that I can ever overcome any of this? My dad also has OCD and has been in and out of my life for as long as I can remember. It makes me struggle with relationships and friendships very badly. I think everyday my boyfriend and the friends I do have, just hate me. Especially my family. I could go on &’ on. But for now, I will just see if this reaches anybody and I would love to hear feedback. Thank you :)

Prits

Date posted: Yesterday

Mental health is real and people who don’t have chronic disorders I feel they’re blessed. But I may be totally wrong. This time will also pass…just read now someone advised wisely “don’t think when will it get over, just take one step at a time”. I know it’s hard but you can do it.

kangarhue

Date posted: Yesterday

@Prits Thank you so much <3

sick&tired

Date posted: 21h

Are you in the u.s.? There is Medicaid for low to no income. There are places that give you free care. I’m sorry you’re hurting and I hope you get access to healthcare soon. Healing is possible. I’ve lived alongside OCD for 15 years and have other conditions as well.

kangarhue

Date posted: 21h

@sick&tired Yes I am, I used to have Medicaid but when I got my new job they took it away and won’t accept me again, they say I “make too much” but I don’t make enough to pay out of pocket 🫩

sick&tired

Date posted: 21h

@kangarhue I’m sorry it sucks to be told that. 😢 I call 988 sometimes to talk when I’m really going through it and they have connected me to free resources in the community. My city also has an in-person support group for OCD. And you can also look for providers that offer a sliding scale. A lot of what you said resonates with my own story. Mental illness is definitely real and sometimes I feel like I belong to an exclusive club because when I try to explain it my friends and family they really don’t understand. Some people are very empathetic to my suffering, but I think it’s really hard for someone to grasp what it’s like if they haven’t lived it. Please don’t let others make you doubt your lived experience. And please keep searching for true community and support. While I wait for treatment I find reading about my conditions to be helpful. There is an app called Libby that lets you borrow books for free using your library card. Other people find podcasts or YouTube to be helpful. There are lots of content creators now on instagram (probably TikTok too) that are sharing their experiences with various mental illnesses or even therapists on these platforms share their expertise, and they make me feel less alone. Your people are out there. Don’t let the ones who don’t get it bring you down.

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