Feeling upset about relapsing

When I found this community and instagram account, I was like “WOW! this community actually exists? I’m not the only one? So I’m not a bad person for dealing with unwanted thoughts that cause me immense distress?” I didn’t even know what OCD was, what “ego-dystonic” meant (which was a huge relief), after struggling with it for a long time I genuinely think the instagram account + praying, helped save my sanity and life After that, i genuinely didn’t have OCD anymore. I didn’t realize it until weeks/months passed and i was like “oh wow those thoughts aren’t here anymore. I feel so happy. So free.” and even if a thought popped up, it quickly went away, i didn’t even remember them However, the recent Lindsey Clancy case has made me get harm OCD thoughts for the first time (I never dealt with that theme before), which sucks when it’s about a loved one that you obviously don’t want to harm. I recently watched the treatmyocd YT video regarding this and I feel much better Also, I don’t have these anymore (they lasted me like 3-5 days) of very disturbing graphic imagery of myself, but i think it was because my country and others have recently gone through horrible earthquakes that left a lot of people dead/missing parts/etc. I was doing so well. Idk why this relapse happened (even of certain thoughts I had already overcome). That makes me sad. Any tips? Thank you 🩷 I hope everyone’s doing well

livelaughlove

Date posted: 10h

Hi! I also first started having harm OCD thoughts after watching the movie The Black Phone. Still struggling with it, but just know the thoughts do go away, and that you are not a bad person for having them. As you said, OCD is ego-dystonic. Many who harm are the complete opposite!

Cupake21211

Date posted: 10h

This is common in ocd I had hocd mostly for a long time don’t have it anymore much much better however recently moral ocd plus false memory ocd and doubting my memory and scared of lying has started

ariel09

Date posted: 10h

I’ve recently been experiencing a bit of a relapse myself. It is a terrible thing and I feel like I’m struggling a lot right now

Anonymous

Date posted: 9h

Seems like it would help to monitor and limit exposure to things that are not helpful to you. The news these days is #1 on that list. If there is something helpful you can do in light of bad news, OK do it. Otherwise there is no point in watching these terrible things hours on end, day after day. We are bombarded with the most dramatic news of stuff happening around the world every minute so TV channels and digital channels can sell ads, make money, and convert your eyeballs into data/algorithms. BUT for most of human life, the extent of the news we received was from our own area - our own zip code or neighborhood. Much more reasonable for a human mind. Now look at the news in your neighborhood - chances are that is more manageable. And maybe there is a farmers market or a lawn concert nearby that you can check out. This approach can only help.

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