ROCD

I was feeling a little disconnected from my partner for a few days and then in the middle of the night I had feeling of what am I doing, wanting to break up, that we co exist idek and I didn’t even feel anxious until the next day. And now I’m panicked this all means I am or have lost feelings. I love my partner so much. And I’m worried I need to share the doubts and worried about what ppl would do “normally” and worried bc I told my partner I felt disconnected and my partner said they need to know this and now I’m like what else do u need to know but I’m sure they didn’t mean it like they really need to know this everytime etc IDK. I’m just panicked and feel sick. Couldn’t this stuff all be normal for a relationship? And I’m overthinking about the whole sharing stuff when I don’t need to share shit. My brain is just spiraling & the feeling that I don’t have feelings or that all of this combined is just overwhelming. My feelings not being enough or me not wanting to be with my partner is TERRIFYING Is this my ROCD making normal shiz into a huge thing? Like latching onto insignificant things that I should move past? I’m so panicked this isn’t the only time this happened but as I said ofc I would latch onto it….

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

If you are the female side of the relationship, and your partner is male, chances are he is not aware of your thoughts. Even if he were, it would affect him like 5% of the amount it affects you. Also there is no proof that your partner has any problems with the relationship. If he’s there, near you, at home, regularly this means he is happy /content. If he weren’t he would have been gone. Also disconnected can mean you are both comfortably in your own zones paying attention to whatever is capturing your attention at the moment. But chances are you are quietly content and happy with the relationship. Happiness doesn’t always manifest in the form of grand romantic gestures, it manifests in small quiet comfort moments like clearing the table together, running an errand together, or squeezing your shoulder. From your post it doesn’t look like you need to take any action based on your thoughts. You can think the thoughts, ask them to take a seat in the corner, and move on with your day.

Mk3

Date posted: 10h

@Anonymous @Anonymous Thanks so much. It’s so hard because everytime I think of all of this I’m so guilty and feel sick about it. I guess I’ll just “feel it” And I’m gunna guess it doesn’t matter how many times I feel or think any of this either? I freak out about that too but I guess it doesn’t matter Like the feeling of not wanting to be with your partner is terrifying it’s making me sick

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