- Date posted
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fear of psychosis
i know this sounds insane but let me start by saying i have always been an extremely sentimental person with teddies etc+if anyone's watching the lindsay clancy trial that's not helping this particular anxiety. Anyways recently i've realised just how long ive had some of my teddies and comfort items, and just how long ive been so attached to them, ive taken them everywhere since i was a tiny kid (im now 19) They've been there in my good and also really bad days so i had the thought of "what if they've seen too much and dont like me" which im fully aware sounds ridiculous because they're not aware, they're toys. I found myself getting anxious over figuring out what teddy had seen what. As soon as i realised i felt that i then thought shit, i'm worrying about a non sentient thing disliking me, i must be in psychosis and believe they are real. Im now freaking out fully because im convinced i have it. im so terrified. I feel guilty about how i used to pretend they were hurt as a kid so i could play doctor and make them better, i know thats normal as a child but im 19 and still feel guilty. Im sinking into pure panic