hestia
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y
Same literal feelings today. This time it’s over if I resolved something or not with an old friend. I can’t remember if I did or not. Just know it will pass. OCD comes and goes. I’m thinking laughter, if we can find it, may be helpful? Self-compassion and self-love are at the heart of all of this.
HappySCMommyHappySCMommy
- Date posted
- 5y
Everyone has old themes, some of us have many... typically, at the very heart of it all, we need to forgive ourselves. Do you think that everyone you know needs to confess and ask forgiveness for everything they’ve ever done (& don’t forget we often punish ourselves for mistakes as if we intentionally hurt something or someone)? Remember, you can’t be there for your friends until you can start being there for yourself. I struggle with self-esteem because I feel it’s wrong for me to “like” myself. That’s OCD. I’ve been reading a lot about self-compassion and it has helped. Wishing you all the best - use that mind strength of compassion (that your OCD is trying to turn into confessions) to give yourself compassion.
DominickDominick
- Date posted
- 5y
If a counselors advice to you is to put it behind you. Past is past. It’s over and done. Find your tools that help you cope And use the heck outta of them
hestiahestia
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
This sounds bad, but I feel I have to confess to each person in my life because I feel I don’t deserve to be around them. Like I’m not allowed to enjoy their presence.
ben123ben123
- Date posted
- 5y
Same for me. Magnification of real life. Assuming the story I have told myself is fact and likely. Going to worse case scenario and thinking I can’t cope. Wanting release from it and googling which is making it worse. Eugh so bored by myself!
HappySCMommyHappySCMommy
- Date posted
- 5y
My therapist helped me realize that all my Googling had become one of my main reassurance seeking tactics and reminded me that the thousands of google searches had not typically made me feel better. He asked me, as an exposure (& to validate my need for detail), that I limit myself when I google something online to only click on one result... it can be any of them, but just one. I can read what that one says and then I have to move on. May be something to try. And as all have said we need to give ourselves compassion. It’s like we’re in a jail cell and the prison door is wide open, we even have the key too (just in case). Everyone has long forgotten (or never even gave thought to) what we did or didn’t do that we’ve labeled as bad (whether it was or not). But we won’t walk out of the cell. We need to walk out of the cell and LIVE. We deserve to live.
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