I really hope this is ocd, I keep telling myself that. I watch videos on ocd to see if I am like ocd and I am but this isn’t convincing me enough. Then I get terrible thoughts what if it’s wrong and I go do the thing I don’t want to do like right now, I want to be distressed by this. Then I’m like are you sure? It’s so bad, I feel like I need help to make me a good person.
Hang in there. I think we all battle similar things in different ways. I have something similar that happens to me with relationship OCD.
@AGAPE LOVE Thank you I’m still feeling this way at times but for some reason when the day is over and I’m with my family I’m at peace and so happy, I just want those moments to last forever. Pretty much all day I’m miserable, I keep having intrusive thoughts and then think what if it happens right now and then I get a surge of anxiety and I say no. Then I think what if I don’t say no, what if I like this. Then I’ll start saying to myself please no, but I’m like what if. You get the picture it’s soooo bad. I also am constantly reassuring myself but I feel like I have to do it because if I don’t then I don’t have ocd. Also I think I have moral scrupulosity. Where I’m always wanting to be a good person. Telling myself constantly I want to be a good person. Good people know they are good. The doubts and anxiety is endless. I’m hanging on for dear life.
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