Cheer

Hey guys, so I've been having a rough time lately. So, I've been here and this is my first year I'm junior but this is my first year doing it, and I've just, I've just been having a hard time, because all the other girls that are my age are experienced except these 2 other girls who joined with me that are also first years, but so I was second row there's 3 lines and I was in the second one, and they moved me back to the third row And it was just like, really hurtful to me because it just made me start thinking like, oh I must suck like I, you know, like I must be really terrible. But I have to remember that it's like only my first year and I have absolutely no experience doing this. And it's only like the second week of school, so it's okay, but I don't know. I just have been hurting because it's just really made me doubt myself and honestly like I do have trouble with the Cheers and I do mess up sometimes, but I don't feel like I don't, I don't feel that I messed up enough to move back, but Obviously if they move me it's for a reason and hopefully you know I know next year, I'll be more in the front and yeah, but the girl he switched me with, I feel like she's been is it called fawning but like you know when like someone says something. Mean to you and then they try to like fix it, by being really nice to you. I feel like that's what that's how she's acting towards me now like since they replaced me with her, I just feel like she's being extra nice to me now. She's like feels bad for me and I don't. I feel like that just makes me feel worse. I don't know anyone who's been into or has went through something similar that I went through Pleasetalk to me and give me some tips. It also feels worse because we had practice all summer and to me, it just feels like, wow, like even without practice, I couldn't do it so I just feel really down and also The other girl gets along the team a lot better, and I don't really talk to a team which I know it's kind of my fault. Cause I'm not very social but it just kind of feels like she's just better than me in every way. And I just don't know how to deal with it.