Has anyone ever experienced this where you had the urge to swallow after a intrusive sexual thought or you felt like your mouth was creating spit after the thought and then your freaking out for swallowing your spit after having a sexual thought and worried that means you where enjoying the thought but you can’t stop swallowing and your replaying the thought and swallowing to gage your emotions
I've had a similar swallowing spit thing. After an intrusive thought, I thought that if I swallowed spit, then I was going to lose my salvation. I remember watching a training video at school, and deliberately trying not to swallow the whole time during the video. It was very uncomfortable. I know what you are talking about. Here's the thing: the OCD has you all tangled up by saying that the swallowing is a means to gauge your emotions. Here's what I want you to do… I know it will be scary, but you need to do it anyway. You need to practice swallowing your spit even when it seems like it means something bad. Practice swallowing your spit on purpose. I know that it only seems bad to swallow your spit in certain contexts where the OCD says that it's connected to a thought. And it's in these exact contexts where you need to swallow. Do it as a slap in the face to the OCD. You are going to give a message to the OCD that you are going to do what you want to do anyway--and that you don't care what the OCD says. I am going through an extremely similar thing right now !!!! OCD tells me that if I move my nose in a certain way, then I'm going to lose my soul. And I am practicing moving my nose that way all the time anyway, even though it feels like something bad is going to happen. So give it a try!!! It might be really scary. And You won't be perfect. And that's OK! All you need to do is orient yourself in this direction. Make the decision that you are going to swallow every time that you are scared to swallow. I'm right here if you want to talk . I can support you through this!!!!
@Tea and Honey Thanks it really is awful it scares me because I had a intrusive sexual thought and than swallowed and worried that meant I was liking the thought
@MR.25.25 There's actually the just the OCD lying to you. I know sometimes it doesn't help to say that the swallowing has no connection to whether or not you like the thought--because the lies of the OCD are just so strong inside us. However, you'll have to take it on faith. I am telling you that the swallowing has no connection to anything (just like moving my nose has no connection to anything!) This nose thing has been a big struggle, though, so I know how you feel. I've been dealing with it for a very long time. Lol, I don't even want to admit how long, because I've known how to defeat it for a long time. It's just hard to put it into practice. But the cure for this is to start practicing. You will need to practice swallowing ANYWAY, despite the fact that the OCD has attributed a dangerous meaning to it. This is an example of a totally a normal OCD trap. It's one of the OCD's prime strategies to keep us miserable. But you don't have to listen to the OCD :-) :-) -------------- One more thing. It will help you A LOT if you stop caring whether you like the thought or not. The OCD wants to believe it would be the worst thing in the world if you liked the thought. However, the truth is, you need to get to a place where you don't care if you like the thought or not. You need to know that the thoughts are just meaningless. It doesn't matter if you feel like you like them. It doesn't matter if you feel like you don't. You are not going to try to figure out whether you like them or not. Sometimes your brain will tell you that you like them. And that's OK. Because in the end, the thoughts are all meaningless. As long as you try to distinguish between the thoughts (e.g., The ones you like vs the ones you don't like), the OCD will keep you in a trap. When you do this, it's like saying some thoughts are safe and some thoughts are not. But in reality, they are all safe, because they are all meaningless. And you have to treat them all the same, whether you like them or not. We can discuss this more, but I think you will gain a lot of freedom when you decide to stop figuring out whether or not you liked them. When this issue comes up, you can tell yourself "well, maybe I liked the thoughts, and I maybe didn't, but it doesn't matter, because it's just a thought." Keep writing, please! We can keep talking about this. I know what it's like to struggle on a certain theme for a very long time. And if I could've talked about it, I could've gotten out of it earlier. I know exactly what this feels like. You can get out of this. ! You can conquer it!!!
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