Traumatic day, still feeling the struggle now

My first period class this morning decided to talk about suicidal thoughts/ the act of suicide, trying to figure out whether or not it is a sin or if they will go to hell. Manu people in my class were very passionate about the idea of if a person struggles with suicidal ideation then they need to repent or else they’ll go to hell. It was so traumatic hearing that. I’ve had people tell me in the past that I’m cursed for having anxiety and ocd and that conversation just sounded so similar to that. To say it’s wrong for a person to struggle with that is so evil and it was so traumatic hearing that people truly believe that. I was so triggered by this topic because, with my ocd, I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts and it’s gone to the point of me playing out how people would react to me killing myself and if that would trigger other suicides and then it would be my fault. I also have some friends who almost went through with suicide. Hearing that these struggles are sinful is so mind boggling to me. Yeah, obviously it isn’t a good thing, but to call it a sin and that someone needs to repent for genuinely struggling with something that deep and personal is so inane. I am so angry and triggered and traumatized and hurt that I had to heat a whole class debating about this. I left the room and had 2 or 3 panic attacks today because of it

peaks&valleys

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21h

Oh my god I am so shocked and angry on your behalf. This is terrible. Take gentle care of yourself. You are worthy of non judgmental and unconditional love and acceptance.

Spooderman12

Date posted: 19h

Thank you, that means a lot :)

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 17h

Oh wow, what a horrible conversation to have to overhear! I can see why that really pushed your OCD buttons and freaked you out. I hope you're able to re-set your nervous system a bit after that needless triggering, and find some peace instead of ruminating 💛 For those of us not in the USA or a similar country with a strong religious mindset, some of the ideas we read on here about religious areas of the world sound shocking to us! I'm a happy atheist from a majority-atheist country. And it shocks me to hear of other human beings talking this way about their fellow people - to say someone would actually deserve to be punished in some kind of nasty afterlife just for falling ill with depression or struggling with their mental health (which isn't even their fault!)! That is surely an outrageous idea. No-one I know would ever entertain such a wicked and un-compassionate notion. And tbh, just knowing that might bring you some perspective and relief! ☺ Your OCD might 'feed' on the ideas that are immediately around you, but I assure you these ideas are not universal or even what a majority of people (even religious people) believe.

savbanana

Date posted: 13h

I was actually thinking about this situation yesterday cause ive too dealt with suicidal thoughts and my coworker is very tu christian and we were talking about something about suicide and he was like “yeah and the people who killed themselves are going to hell” and i thought he was joking at first but he wasn’t and it made me very upset because i can’t image god punishing me to eternal hell because i was suffering from my mental illness so bad.

savbanana

Date posted: 13h

@savbanana personally I don’t believe it and nowadays modern christian’s don’t believe it either i’m sorry that it made you feel that way it’s really uncomfortable hearing those kinda opinions when they don’t know what people are going through

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