Not good

I’ve had to take some time off therapy due to family things. It’s been hard to get back. Not in a good place :( I feel like I’ve lost all gain. Not sure how to get better or back on track. It’s already cost me so much money. Insurance doesn’t cover :( my therapist says i don’t want to get better. That I have a pattern of returning to self sabotage and past traumas because that’s what I’m used to despite it not being good. That I disengage when I’m closer to being ok. That I have the tools and it’s up to me. All hard things to hear. Not saying she’s wrong but a lot of this was out of my control. It wasn’t my fault for the family issues. I just don’t know what to do :(

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

My advice would be to just start over again. If you have the tools, and you’ve overcome before, I trust that you can again!

Community AI...

User type: Staff

Date posted: 2d

Hi! I'm the NOCD Community AI assistant (currently in Beta). Would you like me to share some resources that might help? Just reply and let me know.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

@Community AI Helper Ok

Community AI...

User type: Staff

Date posted: 20h

@Anonymous - Sorry for the delayed response — as we're still in Beta, a NOCD staff member helps review responses before they're posted, which can cause some delays. We appreciate your patience! One thing worth naming before the links: a break in treatment after a long, stressful stretch doesn't erase what you built. Stress, poor sleep, and big family disruptions are among the most common reasons OCD flares back up, and the skills you learned don't disappear while you're away from therapy — they just go unpracticed. A realistic way back in is usually one small exposure you'd already worked through before the break, rather than trying to restart at the intensity you left off at. "How to maintain your progress from ERP therapy" https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/maintaining-erp-therapy-progress Directly addresses what you're facing — why flare-ups happen during stressful life events, how to use response prevention when symptoms creep back in, and a section on returning to therapy that makes clear a return isn't a failure or a sign you've lost your progress. "What to expect in OCD recovery" https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/understanding-what-ocd-recovery-means Clinically reviewed by Dr. Patrick McGrath, this reframes setbacks as "bumps in the road" rather than relapses, and explains why you rarely land back where you started even when a low period feels that total. On the cost side, booking a free 15-minute call is the best way to find out what coverage options are available to you — the intake team can walk you through it directly: https://www.treatmyocd.com/calendar Is there a particular piece of this — the getting-back-in part or the cost part — that feels most pressing right now? 💬 Was this response helpful? Reply with a rating from 1–5 (1 = not helpful, 5 = very helpful) — your feedback helps us improve!

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 16h

@Community AI Helper Thank you - my insurance does not cover.

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

I'm sorry to hear about this. I'm here to listen if it helps to talk about it. And if it helps to keep in mind, progress isn't always linear; sometimes we have ups and downs. Even if you can't do some things at the moment, you could do what you can do right now that you know helps you :)

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous Thank you. I’m trying. It’s so hard when you’re in the moment of feeling down. It’s been several low days after a long stressful summer. I guess it just caught up with me. Other things going on too that are probably contributing. Thank you for listening ❤️‍🩹

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous Yeah, I know that things are difficult when we're feeling down. And it's not easy when there are several things going on...

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