Help If any therapist could help please help

Hello everyone I am asking the same question again but if anybody could help please do My anxiety really destroyed my life that today I feel stuck Really don’t know what to do Never felt fine leave happy and now i am exhausted. Exhausted to a level that i want to run somewhere and be in nature for sometime. I don’t think i have intrusive thoughts because it’s not unwanted thoughts feelings or urges. Its rumination and I am unsure if intrusive thoughts are more than unwanted thoughts images or urges if not then i don’t have intrusive thoughts. But mental reviewing, or wanting a lot of reassurances Is there. I don’t feel happy. I feel disconnected not part of family groups. They enjoy but I don’t feel connected or enjoy and it was from starting nothing new. I am so tired that I don’t want to get better now. Like I am done. 27 years caused too much exhaustion. My problem is I worry a lot- what if I told something and the person exploited me . So I’ll keep it inside ( I am from different country and different cultural context that’s why I don’t trust people and I am always confused ) plus my sense of judgement or confidence in sense of judgement has been destroyed from childhood its just that i have lived in survival mode all the time. My brain works very slowly now- poor concentration. Whole world is doing something —working earning and I am doing nothing. I don’t want to put a facade now because I have reached a level where I can’t act anymore. I have spent my money on meds Unfortunately no medication worked and saw therapists in my own country so to be honest I can’t afford therapy Through this platform I share my story. Because I have no one to share my story with except 1-2 people. And they understand it I don’t know. I really don’t even know what to do- any job that I am interested in because I am interested in nothing I am completely exhausted and numb.

Anonymous

Date posted: 8h

When these feelings happen call someone else and ask them how they are doing.

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 8h

Tea and Honey

Date posted: 8h

I am so sorry that you are so tired. Anxiety can do that to a person. And it can be very hard for people to understand how exhausting this type of thing can be. I'm so sorry :(:( I'm here to listen. I have dealt with OCD for the past 20 years, and some before that as well. I'm in a lot better place than I used to be. And you can get to a better place too!!! Maybe the first step is for you to really have someone listen to you. I think you probably have layers and layers of things that you need to talk about and process. It takes a long time to talk about these things, hours or days or weeks. It takes a long time to work through things. But that's OK!! You need to give yourself permission to go on this journey to where you get to a better place. Sometimes that starts with talking about things. I am here to listen if you want!! I also have resources if you are interested in therapy. Are you currently living in the United States, even if you are from another country? NOCD does all of their sessions over zoom, so it's a good option. Even if you don't have OCD, and just have anxiety, ERP therapy can help you . I also really like this online course. I'll link it below. https://www.ocd-anxiety.com/ Again, even if you are not sure if you have OCD, these tools might still be able to help you. Do you want to talk more about things that are bothering you?? I'm right here!

mindonrepeat@05

Date posted: 50m

@Tea and Honey Sure if you are ready to listen and can give me your advice then yes. You have dealt with it for 20 years so in that thing you have become wiser.

mindonrepeat@05

Date posted: 47m

@mindonrepeat@05 No I don’t live in US and where I live I am looking for therapy there. But still finding out not found yet.

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