anyone else wish that they never learned about ocd in the first place?

my main issue is just with how misunderstood it is. it’s been a little hopeless lately, lol

@SL3 Well I’ve made a commitment to try the Zoloft out for a solid 3 months and I do know that if it quiets my mind a bit it’ll be well worth it. Is the Brain Lock book about ocd or neurodivergence or both ? Do you have any other recommendations

@Peaceful Warrior Brain lock is about OCD. It’s a great book but if you have pure O like me I recommend the book with the same title Pure O by Chad Lejeune

@SL3 I just got off lexapro, which numbed me so it’s scary to try something else. Trying to heal with ocd is like always taking one step forward and two steps back. It’s just so frustrating. I’m starting to consider Zoloft if it doesn’t cause the same zombie like and numb symptoms.

@SL3 Thank you for that

@Lalillie I understand the fear but it might be worth giving it a try. I know with OCD you have to be on a higher than typical dose so hopefully it will be a slow taper. It can also cause stomach issues in the beginning. A good prescriber will help you go slow. If you feel like a zombie it’s def not the right medication!

i’m planning to.

@Peaceful Warrior Then you’re letting it define you and your egos becoming attached to it.

@Peaceful Warrior It kind of reminds me of when people get diagnosed with autism, suddenly they notice the normally small traits and they feel blown up now that it’s not an automatic adjustment you make but a conscious symptom. I’m currently medicated and will likely be medicated for the rest of my life. Medication, in partnership with therapy, helps more than either alone. Medication isn’t a heal all, or a curse, it’s just a little help for your brain to find balance. Unfortunately the “Russian roulette” of figuring out what works and what doesn’t can be frustrating, but once you get past that and figure out what works, and using therapy to rewire your brain, in a way, you may be able to get off of them. You are not a failure for needing an external chemical balance. It doesn’t negate the hard work you’ve put in. The medication is only meant to help get you to a neutral, to better make new neural pathways. I’m rooting for you! Sorry this got so long..

@Lalillie Yep

@Lobomo Thanks that’s reassuring and yes I know it’s the help I need and it’s strange I don’t feel the same about the adhd meds I’m on , I’m also in really bad burnout and I’m sure once I get out of the burnout I’ll have a better capacity to figure everything out. I understand what you’re saying about the autism thing too except autism isn’t an evil bastard ruining my calm lol

for me it’s a combination of picking up other people’s obsessive thoughts and being able to see what other people think about the disorder. i never worried so much about pocd until i heard about it and heard about other people’s thoughts, which i later ended up picking up because i had heard of them and i did the “well i’m glad i don’t have that bad thought!” thing. before, my intrusive thoughts weren’t as bad. now, they’re worse because i’m picking up stuff from other people and then feeling worse because i can see comments and people’s opinions on the exact subject (from where i’m picking up the bad thoughts and seeing the comments, the internet.) i think it may just be different for me because it got worse after labeling what was going on.