OCD flare up after meeting with a psychiatrist

I’ve been having a pretty bad OCD flare up this past month & have been meaning to start back up with therapy and psychiatry anyway just to get my foot in the door with getting OCD manageable + I’m having to go visit my home state after two years of not visiting it and my OCD is doing classic OCD things like “What if XYZ happens?” & “What if you ruin your favorite things/interests by looking at them there & you start pushing them away to not ruin them and then you ruin them?” etc etc. But during my appointment she prescribed me fluvoxamine for my OCD symptoms. Now for some context, years ago I was on Zoloft and it absolutely recked me and did not help me at all, and due to that SSRIs have been placed in the “I never want to take those things again” category & she obviously prescribed me an SSRI. Last night I had an absolute OCD meltdown. Thinking about how I felt during the time of taking my last SSRI, how unstable I was, how sick I felt, how I pushed all my likes and interests away in fear of ruining them etc etc & now that I’m so comfortable with my interests and hobbies and stuff like that, the mere idea of the prescription is like threatening my comfort. Which is obviously the OCD going full blast. I also would be starting a new medication out of state on a vacation in a place I have a lot of anxiety to be in, so I’m not gonna start taking it. I would much rather take a medication to ease my anxiety as needed + the medicine I’m already on and do ERP therapy IRL than take that medication. I have an appointment set up for when we get back and it’s virtual and for some reason I feel shame about wanting this instead of what she prescribed??? During our appointment she was very kind and warm and seemed to actually care about me so, during my next appointment I’ll mention all of this to her, I think I was to nervous to say anything my first time because I didn’t wanna seem to like intense or stressed or something. Does anyone know if this would be appropriate??? And does anyone have any tips or suggestions on how to ease those anxieties???

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Anonymous

Date posted: 11h

I'm sorry you're struggling. I'm taking fluvoximine right now and it's been helping. It doesn't completely eliminate the intrusive thoughts, but it definetly helps. I've also taken SSRI's before and had terrible side effects from them. Not all SSRI's are bad, it just takes some experimentation. That being said, if you don't feel comfortable taking it, I would mention that to your prescriber. She won't judge you because she's probably seen it all. I've had the same thoughts, but if you don't tell your care providers how you actually feel, you won't progress in the way you want to.

LouLouDaki18

Date posted: 8h

@Anonymous fluvoxamine has made things so much more bearable for me since being put on it like 6 years ago or something

SunnyAnon

Date posted: 9h

I don’t want anyone to think I’m shaming taking medication! I know fully that medication works, and what doesn’t work for someone may work for someone else. It just doesn’t feel like the right choice for me RIGHT NOW. That might change but right now I want to take things slower and try other methods before new medication, especially right before going on vacation lol!!!!!

LouLouDaki18

Date posted: 8h

@SunnyAnon i totally get you! and you're so valid for that. there's a couple types of meds i'm very afraid of because of my negative experiences with them (in my case, opioids and hypnotics/sleep meds) and if i were prescribed them i would probably have the same spiral you're having now (minus the away from home thing) and fight against being prescribed them. the meds i'm on now have changed my life for the better, but other meds have had really bad effects. i'm quite wary of oral antibiotics as well because of how many i've discovered i have an allergy to the hard way

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Date posted: 10h

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Kim27

Date posted: 9h

I took Proza for awhile. It really helped me for several years. Then stopped working. Currently I take zoloft and Desvenlafaxine. I was doing great for 4 months. This past week I had a flare up. Medicine has been really helpful to me. What works for one person may not work for someone else. It does take several weeks to know if something is working or not which is difficult to live through

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