Therapy- ( genuinely need help with this)

I have been in therapy for 6-7 months now- but there is no progress, its all my fault tho- because i just cant bring myself to express and conversations are very surface level- we talk once or twice a week for 20-30 mins only because i just cant bring myself to open up, i feeel really guilty but i feel like i am seeking attention and i feel like what if i am just pretending, so most of the times my answer is idk to stuff- and i feel guilty either ways - idk what to do now- i have told her that i have intrusive thoughts which are really bad but i couldnt tell her the themes or what the thoughts are because it just feels really really horrible - and i think i have never really shared about my themes anywhere because it makes me hate myself more - if u have any advice how to get better at this - because its getting really difficult and no one really understands this thing irl so yeah-

username0192...

Date posted: 15h

I am so sorry you feel this way. Is this a therapist who specializes in OCD? If not I would really recommend you find one who is, because someone who can help you with ERP will be immensely more beneficial to you than someone who can’t. In the meantime, understand that you HAVE made progress. Showing up to therapy is incredibly nontrivial. Therapy requires a great deal of vulnerability and it’s easy to get hurt when you are vulnerable, so it makes sense that your brain would try to “protect” you. But your therapist is only there to help you, and won’t be able to best do that if you aren’t vulnerable. Don’t feel guilty about it—be proud of yourself that you’ve been taking this time to get better and trust that this is just part of the process. I would just be open with your therapist about having a hard time being honest with them and I am sure they have some advice to share on small steps you can take to get there. You are certainly not alone in this feeling. But I know you can do it. And also be kind to yourself because you’ve already accomplished a lot more than you think

Anonymous:(((

Date posted: 15h

@username0192837456 Doesn’t specialise in ocd- , but thank you means alot <3

Anonymous

Date posted: 15h

I think you should open up to your therapist about your thoughts. That’s really the only way to find peace and an answer.

starlight.se...

Date posted: 14h

Its because you did general therapy witch makes it worse… You need OCD specialized therapy such as CBT. You can practice on your own ERP, or I can help you with it if you want <3

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