Is someone (over 18) with sexual obsessions available to talk to me? I’m a little nervous.

Thank you! I appreciate it. This is going to get a little personal, is that alright? I don’t want to trigger you or make you uncomfortable.

@KBright No, its all good. I’ve run my course with hocd and pocd, I understand you have to get personal to truly explain it

@sorryitsemmy Thank you so much! So for reference - I’ve always had this thing where I’ll kinda move and rub my legs together for pleasure. Just kinda a weird me thing. So a few days ago I woke up and has some thoughts, and suddenly I felt the urge to do that. I felt really horny. And typically, my groinal responses aren’t like that. They’re just small and quick. So I assumed those two things - the thoughts and the feeling were unrelated. But I did get a little worried. Then for the next couple of days I started to kinda panic about it. And whenever I was near someone who triggered me I’d feel horny/like I wanted to do that. I’ve tried to hard to ignore it and remind myself they’re not connected. But this morning I woke up and I got triggered. I told myself it was okay and kinda moved on emotionally but was still trying not to act or anything. But then while I was looking at my phone I rubbed my legs together without really thinking, maybe to feel good, i don’t know. But i wasn’t really thinking about the trigger anymore. Now I’m in panic mode feeling like I acted on my thoughts, or enjoyed/wanted to.... Is this OCD? Did I do something bad?

@Bob999 Weird :/ must be an OCD thing

Something that is incredibly important that helped me through sexual obsessions is learning that anxiety, in people with ocd regarding sexual things, can be mistaken with being turned on. I used to get groinal responses and trust me, those are terrifying because you think “my body is reacting- that means it must be true.” The obsessing and completely uncorrelated points exemplifies what I experienced in hocd. I tied things together that did not make sense to tie together. Its most likely the anxiety of your trigger led you to want to conplete a compulsion- which could temporarily relieve your anxiety only for it to be stronger later.

@sorryitsemmy But me doing something for pleasure has never been a compulsion for me. I feel like I did this specifically to feel pleasure, just not from the thoughts or anything. Just to do it. But I’m now worrying that I made that non-OCD choice because of the trigger ? Does that make sense? Like I wasn’t doing a compulsion, I just kind of didn’t and now am worrying they were related.

@KBright Fact that you’re obsessing on it this way is part of the compulsion now and need for clarity etc instead of just being like oh yea, ok whatever? That felt good moving on, but no you’re OCD is making you obsess on it now perhaps if that makes sense

@Dee313 Oh okay - that makes sense! My OCD is making me connect it.