Real Events/Questioning other people's morality

Nobody’s perfect, and a majority of the time people are afraid to share/quick to judge others because they view themselves through their own mindset (humans naturally rationalize mistakes, past experiences, etc to make them pass more easily). It is so easy to judge looking at another person without knowing what they are going through and their full experiences. This is completely normal, and you may be like “I hope they did something worse so then I feel better about myself, etc)…the reality is, if you did not value your morality, you wouldn’t give a shit about what you do, or what others do for that matter. The fact that you recognize real events and think “yeah, probably shouldnt have done that” is growth alone, and once you have gotten to that mindset, there’s no use comparing yourself to others. Some people may not have made similar mistakes to you… some people may have made horrible mistakes that they regret every day…but the weight of those mistakes with OCD will never go away bc you will always view yourself as the exception, or worse than others.

I don't think that finding out what others did will give you a definitive answer on wether you're good or bad. Even if you end up coming to a conclusion, OCD will cycle back to uncertainty and you will look for another "target". It's a loop of searching for validation that works the same way as confessing to people to reassure you that you're not as bad as you think you are. It's not invasive to wonder about it since it's just in your head, but it could be definitely a mental compulsion. Also, you can accept youself and what you did regardless if it makes you "the devil". As long as you're trying to do better and took full accountability, what else can you do? Even if the whole world hates you and tells you that you don't deserve to have this life, you are still the one in control of it. Soon enough you will realize that there are still people who will care about you regardless of your past, and that you can always find support even if you don't think you deserve it. I suggest avoiding anything controversial since it clearly affects you mentally. Watching this content can be a common compulsion, and seeing death threats and condemnation online could cause a lot of dread and suffering, even if it's not aimed at you. I hope you can ger through this, sending hugs 🫂

I promiseee! Take this from me, majority of those people that judge others and are in the comments supposedly holding others accountable, they are most likely to suffer from their own wrongdoings and to feel better they have this perfection outside “like yeh, he is or she is awful they need to be in jail Asap” but deep down they are also doing something that people would judge them for. I have friends who don’t reflect on their wrongdoings and I noticed a pattern that they hold others accountable but privately they are just doing bad things they need to stop doing. People are selective about sin or wrongdoings, it’s like “as long as I’m not doing it others shouldn’t “ and judge anyone who does. I stopped opening comments section or certain apps on purpose for my mental health because people are just not educated and they talk like they’re professional and they are too woke like please… I tend to make my opinion and stick by it. And anytime a video triggers just swipe up you will save yourself less torture especially with ocd