OCD targetting my inner child work and don't know the difference between real or fake anymore

i feel like im human but not human at the same time, like i feel like im a human w/o feelings and emotions man even tho i do have them but i feel as if im disconnected from myself yet im connected to myself. ever since my mind made up some i got alot of versions in myself, and like mutliple versions in my body i mean thats still me and how i react but like after my ocd just suppressed a version of myself, and i feel like this subconscious version that is controlling my movements is a version i suppressed. i feel like i have an identity but don't have an identity whatsoever what i healed from what i know is still there but idk i feel the constant need to reparent my past self that idk if its there or not because i have once parented that past self, i feel like whenever i do something i still get triggered and i feel like another past self is watching instead of just me the more i talk about it the more complicated it is. My brain loves to or I don't know if its real or fake, cause I don't even knwo what to do. From there, I had worried about not being human enough, so I wanted to think about my identity which is real or fake which I did technically it sort of feels like I’m pretending and not at the same time cause there are layers from me, and yet I think I taught my inner child I forgot or something I was worrying about what version am I, am I fixed or am I growing cause I’m not growing into who I wanna be, and so my OCD caused it so my OCD came and suppressed a version of myself and I thought I have DID/OSDD. And when I asked another person about it, they said “it’s not quite DID like or how they would manifest”, and I agree with that cause I feel like it’s just alters and my problems are just past versions of myself. And I am this current self, which is the healed and present self but my subconscious mind could be my self that I have suppressed and OCD made me feel like my versions are split and my brain has changed into two instead of one.