Relationship ocd

Hi so my doctor wants me to go on medication but I’m just too scared to go on it. I think this is called magical thinking but I have convinced myself that if I take my medication I’m going to fall out of love with my boyfriend of 3 years and we’re going to separate. I think that is my intrusive thoughts from my relationship ocd but I hate it so much. I just think “what if I take the medication and have no feelings for him” and thoughts like that. It’s been affecting me getting a job too because I think “what if this causes us to break up because we won’t have as much time together”. Or I think “what if I fall in love with someone else and lose him” I don’t want to lose my boyfriend and this scares me.

StayGolden2026

Date posted: 15h

I fought taking medication for years and it negatively affected my life in so many ways. When I finally listened to my family and doctors and started meds it was life changing for me. I am doing so much better, hopefully you will too.

bobthesloth

Date posted: 13h

@StayGolden2026 Did your medications make you feel numb towards others? The only thing that is making me hesitate is because I was on ADHD meds for years and couldn’t feel a thing. My biggest fear is falling out of love with my boyfriend and I’m scared the medication will make that happen

RainyThoughts

Date posted: 15h

i’ve been there, it’s scary but worth pushing through that initial discomfort and trying the new medication. my medication has actually allowed me to show up better for myself and in turn we show up better for those around us! like our partners! you got this!

bobthesloth

Date posted: 13h

@RainyThoughts The initial discomfort is driving me crazy, thinking about taking the medication is actually making me sick to my stomach. I’m just worried it’ll make me emotionally numb because that’s what my last medication did

RainyThoughts

Date posted: 12h

@bobthesloth i know it’s super tiring with having to try different medications, it can be scary trusting the process but the end result of finding a medication that works for you is the best thing you can do for you & your partner. when ur feeling that uncomfortableness try to keep the end goal in sight, living with the uncertainty in the present moment is helping u get closer to achieving whatever it is ur working towards!

chiapuddingw...

Date posted: 15h

All those “what if” thoughts are ocd. At the end of the day you don’t know what will happen and you have to live that uncertainty.

chiapuddingw...

Date posted: 15h

^as someone who deals with the same stuff <3

isacatm3

Date posted: 14h

I have relationship ocd too it’s so hard 😭 and it took me 2 years to finally agree to go on lexapro my doctor had been trying to get me on it for 2 years but I was SO anxious about what if it turned me to a completely different person that I avoided treatment until finally I realize I’m way too anxious I need to just listen to my doctor. You GOT THIS

bobthesloth

Date posted: 13h

@isacatm3 Has your medication made you emotionally blunt and not feel anything ? That’s my biggest fear I’m scared it’ll make me numb and cause me to overthink about not loving my boyfriend I’m so scared but hearing that it’s helping so many people is making me want to try

isacatm3

Date posted: 13h

@bobthesloth Nope. 🙂‍↔️ I will say it does make me more sleepy and sometimes I have a harder time paying attention. But I don’t feel numb.

isacatm3

Date posted: 13h

@bobthesloth I literally feel like my self I just am a lil less anxious how ever it does make it harder for me to pay attention and the sleepiness GETS ME 😥 but literally I’m able to do everything normally like I don’t feel at all like a different person

bobthesloth

Date posted: 13h

@isacatm3 This is so reassuring thank you so much! That’s the sleepiness may actually help me lol I have a hard time falling asleep. I’m glad it helps you maybe I will try it! May I ask what meditation you are on out of curiosity so I can ask my doctor about that. My doctor wants to put me on Prozac I believe but I hear mixed reviews about that

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