D*ing

My biggest ocd fear is dying and what comes after it. I constantly feel like my time is limited,I fall down this spiral about it to the point where I freak out and have a mental breakdown. I use to break down every single night until I was sick to my stomach. It’ll last for months and go away for weeks or sometimes even a year when I’m lucky. I can feel it starting to happen again,it always hits during fall and winter. This is ruining my life at this point I feel so anxious and sick all the time and I just want these thoughts to end. I don’t want any reassurance or advice I just want to not feel so alone in this does anyone else think about this?

ADHD and OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

I used to think about that all the time and one day I just decided to pray to Jesus and I never went back. He has cured my depression. I still get intrusive thoughts so that's why I am seeking help outside of Him but He truly made that fear go away when I truly felt Him in my heart. It is so freeing to know you have a greater purpose on this earth. Just give it a try it won't disappoint.

bobthesloth

Date posted: Yesterday

@Anonymous I am slightly religious myself. I went to Sunday school and church as a kid and pray every night before I go to bed. Praying comforts me a lot but if I’m being honest my ocd has made religion bad for me as well. I constantly live in fear that god is going to send me to hell or I question if he’s even real at all because if my ocd and I get scared that he will get mad at that but I cannot control the thoughts

overthinking...

Date posted: Yesterday

@bobthesloth i understand what you mean, and I struggle with this as well. I have been a christian my whole life (I still am) and I struggle with the intrusive thoughts of “am i going to hell?” or whatever it may be. but try to focus yourself on what we know to be true about God. He is a loving God, who has boundless grace for us. Also, God knows about your OCD. He looks at your heart, not your mind and what attacks it. He created you, and knows everything about you!! And he loves you endlessly 🩷

bobthesloth

Date posted: Yesterday

@overthinkingqueen412 This made me feel a lot better thank you so much. I always say good judges the soul and not what’s on the surfaces. I guess I let my intrusive thoughts win sometimes. Thank you so much

Gloriaxoxo

Date posted: Yesterday

This is a big part of my health anxiety, but my fear around death is moreso the fact that it would hurt the people I love and that scares me a lot. I also really am scared of suffering - like dying slowly or something awful and not having control over it. It’s been this way since I was little- but worse over the past few years. I feel you.

bobthesloth

Date posted: Yesterday

@Gloriaxoxo Ugh I’m so sorry you have to go through this it sucks so much, nobody should have to go through this. I’m the same way tho I use to cry to my mom as a kid because I was getting older. It went away for a while came back when i was in high school and left again and now it’s been back since last year. I just want it to go away forever

Anonymous0047

Date posted: 17h

I have struggled with this since I was a child and it definitely comes and goes in severity. Ultimately I try to remember this is something we have no control over, none of us are leaving here alive! (Haha) All we can do is live the best life we can. I would go for weeks just ruminating on this topic and it caused a lot of depression and anxiety, you are definitely not alone.

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