ram190
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- 5y
T175T175
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- 5y
I'm with you all the way on this
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
i’m exactly the same. and my family isn’t even supportive, they show that i’m crazy and how annoyed they get. i’m 14, well almost 15, and i have two brothers and it’s so hard to live with them and i can’t touch anything they’ve touched and all i want is someone to relate to. i’m so glad i can relate to you because jf seems like everyone else on here has a different type of ocd as me. it’s literally taken over my life and it’s so hard for me to live like this. how old are you and how does it affect you?
ram190ram190
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- 5y
I'm 20 but I've been dealing with this since I was about 14 on and off. I'll clean my entire house several times a day, I'll wash my hands to the point where they bleed, I'll avoid anyone who is sick, I wont eat certain foods like spaghetti or anything red in case i do throw up. I will chew mint gum to ease nausea. Theres so many rituals I do daily and its exhausting
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
@ram190 this sounds similar to me, my hands are always bleeding and dry. and i find it hard to eat meat, specifically pork and chicken, and i refuse to touch surfaces, and i questioned my little brother for about 20 minutes as to why he didn’t want any popcorn. i’m annoying everyone around me and i just want it all to stop
ram190ram190
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- 5y
@evahasocd I can imagine it's hard being around smaller children everyday given how often they're sick. This is one of the reasons I dont want children because if they get sick I will not be able to deal with it. My boyfriend is getting upset about the fact that we still dont have kids and wont anytime soon. I would reccomend seeking help, even if its just asking your parents to take you to therapy or finding someone to relate to and talk to daily.
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
@ram190 i’m really sorry about that. and i’m also like that with children, i’m only 14 and would love to have kids in the future, but i just can’t because of the germs. and i did have help of the summer, i did the CBT help. and it was all wasted and now i’m even worse than before i saw a therapist and i don’t have the heart to talk to my parents about it because they went through so much trouble to get me appointments to see someone.
ram190ram190
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- 5y
@evahasocd Does talking about it help?
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
@ram190 well it doesn’t improve my ocd, but it does make me feel better if someone genuinely wants to listen to me
ram190ram190
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- 5y
@evahasocd Well I will listen to you if need be, it doesn't help OCD you're correct. I find that talking about it makes me feel better because then I dont feel like I'm crazy anymore. I would try talking to your parents and being 100% honest with them. If therapy isn't working then it's time to try something new.
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
okay thank you very much and i’m suddenly very aware about how i’ve been talking about me this whole time i’m sorry
ram190ram190
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- 5y
Hey that's okay Haha. I enjoy helping people and you seem to be going through an anxiety attack right now so it's okay to talk about you and your feelings.
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
@ram190 thank you but i feel really bad about it
ram190ram190
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- 5y
@evahasocd Have you filled out the therapy tab on this app?
overthinkeroverthinker
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- 5y
@ram190 no i haven’t, i prefer to just talk in the community section rather than doing all of the technical things
ram190ram190
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- 5y
@evahasocd I'm not sure if you have the reddit app but theres a subreddit called r/emetophobia that's pretty active. Everyone there shares coping techniques and their concerns if you want something a little more intimate than this.
overthinkeroverthinker
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@ram190 okay thank you, and yes i do have reddit
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
Yes! Last year I got incredibly sick and I was in the hospital for two days. For months after that, I struggled to eat and eating caused extreme anxiety. I lost about 15 pounds so I weighed around 80 (im normally around 95.. im small) and I was nearly skin and bones because of my intense fear. Eating made me feel nauseous because I was so scared.
ram190ram190
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I went through that when I was 14, I didn't eat anything besides toast for months and lost like 30 pounds
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
@ram190 Sounds familiar. All I ate was pretzels. I went to the doctors and got tons of blood tests and physical exams because I was convinced that something was medically wrong with my stomach and didnt recognize it as emetophobia and anxiety
ram190ram190
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@sorryitsemmy Same! My mom was convinced that I was anorexic but I was just terrified of vomiting. I also noticed that it isn't as severe all the time. I'll go through episodes where the fear is much stronger and itll last months at a time
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Emetophobia
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