Tiredoflife -J
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Does anyone have moral ocd/ realevent / false memory ocd involving watching porn or anything porn related? :/
Healing everydayHealing ever...
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It’s very common, I went through that. It f up your mind a lot cuz you’re like “why did I watch that back then, I would never today, I find that disgusting” or “the things I watched is things I would never do in reality or even fantasize about”. It’s difficult cuz you’re in a state of trigger, whenever you hear that word, you get triggered for many things and you’re like what if I watched something I can’t remember that was pocd related, and now false memory comes to life…
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeah mine is porn related and I’ve never got over it I’m still trying to analyze why I watched things years ago it’s really sad I also opened up to a family member about it and she uses it against me and tries to trigger me when she feels like it sometimes ✨
Healing everydayHealing ever...
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@Anonymous I’m so sorry… you’re not alone. I learned to keep things private to myself because the world is just cruel and first thing they think about when you open up is “oh no yeh you have to go, you’re nasty” it’s just reality, those are the same people that do it behind closed doors. Some people feel better judging others even if they do the same thing but they like to point finger to feel better… our morals are different today. I have moment where I’m like eww I used to watch this things back, I would never look at them now, and some of them are taboo related (obviously nothing illegal). But then your brain starts questioning if I watched things further than the ones I know of currently… I would advise to never share anything with anyone except a counselor you can trust. You’re allowed to have privacy and keep things in the past, it’s not deceiving people because they weren’t there when you did it.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Healing everyday I really appreciate your message thank you it’s nice to know I’m not alone there. And it’s like I know I’m not but my mind makes me feel like I am which makes me sad. I hope you’re doing well sending love xx
BigGyro09BigGyro09
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Yes. Like other comments have said, this is a pretty common phenomenon that goes on in the community, including myself. There are several memories that I have that still bother me here and there but I'm glad that above all else I'm not watching pornography. It's been several weeks to months since I've watched and I'm glad that I've been able to stop for a long time. I think back on those videos and have a lot of shame because they don't connect with my morals on a deep level. I watched content involving adults that was taboo that I think is disgusting but labeling things as such is what most people eventually gravitate to after watching the same thing for so long. It's a scientifically recorded cycle that happens through desensitization. When it comes to pocd, I think about the things I've seen and did when I was in my teen years and sometimes it can be hard to move forward with that. What I've been trying to do is be kind to myself unconditionally.
Tiredoflife -JTiredoflife -J
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@BigGyro09 I’m sure you’re read some of my stuff before about what I mean about porn and pocd stuff hopefully
BigGyro09BigGyro09
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@Tiredoflife -J Yeah I'm familiar with what you've posted in the past. I think I follow you too because you are an adult that struggles with similar things I do. I hope that things have been easier for you though:)
Tiredoflife -JTiredoflife -J
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- 2d
And pocd
AnonymousOCDSuffererAnonymousOCD...
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I think if you look around this community you will find that it is quite common
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