it’s true

I don’t think it’s OCD though I’m not normal

@anonymous.22 When you say “normal” do you mean it in the more conventional sense of the term?

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior - yes

@anonymous.22 Well… I guess what “Ocd is Evil !” said is something that I would emphasize, not to be too brash or anything but are you comfortable saying what specifically makes you feel not “normal”? I totally understand if you don’t want to, I’m just curious what it could be if it’s not related to Ocd. Regardless of the reason why you’re not feeling “normal” just remember that feelings like this don’t make you as a person any less “normal” than the next 🙂

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior - I’ve done some reflection and I just have a fear of like not being able to move on, I fear I’ll be stuck not being able to move on from things because I just feel fomo from being younger and not experiencing what i imagined I would I feel sad that I never got to do these things and wish I could have but I get scared that that’s still what I want or that I won’t ever move on from wanting that and will be a weirdo. Because I’ve just turned 17 and I feel like I’ve wasted my entire teenage life I never had many friends I never did anything I wanted to experience and I just fear I won’t ever be able to let that go and be that weird older person that can’t move on from school and teenagers. Does this make sense?

@anonymous.22 Yes, I actually understand most of what you’ve described here and to be honest I personally kind of felt this way when I graduated high school and was about to head off to college. I felt that by focusing so much on school and not all of the other typical teenager stuff that the other kids got up to I was “missing out” in a way. But, upon reflection I realized that sure I could have done some of that stuff but none of it really appealed to me or seemed that fun to be honest. I guess it just wasn’t my cup of tea. Eventually I was able to reconnect with some of my high school friends and I even made a few in college. Now, things seem to be pretty stable. I never really had a lot of friends growing up, mostly because I preferred quality over quantity, but everyone is different. But, let me tell you that while yeah I totally get feeling like so far things could have gone better, you still have so much more life to experience, both the good and the bad, it’s all part of this big crazy thing called life and we are all here for you if you need some help along the way 🙂

@A Foolish Samurai Warrior - I’m just so worried I’ll be stuck wanting those things like I want to move on and not care but it seems like I can’t I just wish I could get a do over all I wanted was to be like my peers but my social anxiety ruined it all. But I’m going to try not focusing on it so much and maybe with time I can move on, and thank you for you response it’s really helpful and makes me feel a lot better!

@anonymous.22 No problem, I’m glad that I could help 🙂

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@anonymous.22 I also had this similar problem of not feeling normal or feeling like a disgusting perosn in this case the best u can do is try to identify what's ur deepest fear? Is it like a what if throught or someone finding out something u did? This can actually help narrow stuff down to the real problem and remember a feeling is just feeling it doesn't mean if ur feeling like not normal u are not normal sometiems anxiety can amplify certain feelings and fears. Best wishes and I hope u recover soon!

@Ocd is Evil ! - Thank you!