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Im sorry to hear that. I've been going through my ocd struggles as well today. You are not alone.

Im having this too there’s nothing to make it go away in a second like we all wish but . ..Sometimes what helps me is cold water on the face, rubbing an ice cube on my face, jumping around kinda shaking it off or even going outside taking some really deep breaths. Sorta grounding techniques is what resources help me. You aren’t alone

I’m sorry to hear you are going through this, something that helps me is remembering that this is a response the body has to extreme stress. Thinking of that grounds me a little bit more, it’s hard not to think of it when you’re in it but try your best to recognize it and gently shift your attention else where. Do things that you like, listen to music, do crafts with your hands. I think you’ll find with time it gets better. Keep going!

NOCD is always there if you need them.:):) I think it's important to get a therapist who specializes in ERP, like NOCD does. A lot of other types of therapy simply don't work for OCD. I can also tell you the sorts of things that work for me. I haven't had depersonalization, but I've had some other OCD things that might be somewhat similar. I've had long periods of time, even over a year, when I had icky negative feelings inside my body and in my head. I learned to just ALLOW those negative feelings to hang around, no matter how long they wanted to. And I also learned that those feelings DON'T MEAN ANYTHING. Therefore, there's a sense that I just don't care if those icky feelings are there or not. Last night, I was watching a movie, and the OCD was telling me that if I don't get my feelings right, my soul was going to die. But I didn't listen to the OCD. Instead, I allowed the feelings to be dark and bad. And then I just kept watching the movie, as if the feelings didn't exist at all. This is because I know the they don't actually mean anything. If I didn't have these tools, I would be really, really stuck. I think it can be really important to learn how to ALLOW whatever feelings the OCD brings. And then choose to go about your day like those feelings don't matter at all, because they don't. I did that when I had a little panic attack while I was driving the other day. I felt like my body was going to shut down and I was going to die. I told myself, "Well, these are the feelings that I have right now. I'm just going to ignore them and keep driving." Even though I haven't had technically the same theme of OCD that you have, I am going to guess that some of these tools might work. You might make some progress if you allow yourself to feel however bad you as going to feel inside, even if you feel separated from life. And then you just CHOOSE to keep living life as if those feelings were not there. Remember: You don't have to chase the feelings. You don't have to figure them out. And you don't have to fix them. All these things just feed the OCD. Once you release yourself from having to figure out the feelings or having to fix them, you can gain a lot of freedom over the OCD. It's like the OCD can scream and kick and yell all all it wants, but we're not going to listen to it. It's like an annoying little brother who's always yelling at you, but he loses momentum when you start ignoring him. I'm here to talk if you need help. I know what it feels like to explain my questions to a therapist and have her not understand. I know what it feels like to explain my questions to people around me and have them not understand. Sometimes it seems like the only people who do understand are people who have had OCD themselves . And then they automatically know what I'm saying. I know OCD makes you feel trapped, like there is no way out. But there is a way out. Other people can see it clearly! It can take time to learn the tools that you need. And that's OK. Remember that you are on a journey. And each step is getting you better. You don't have to be afraid of where you are right now. It's just OCD. We know what it is. And you are not alone!! OCD might have different themes, but the core of it is just the same in every person's life. And we can treat it exactly the same tools. You got this! All you need is baby steps :):):):):) I'm here for you

I'm sorry you're going through this. Dpdr is so scary! I'm currently working through an episode of it. I've found articles and youtube videos from this author have helped a bit. The 4 Principles of Depersonalization Cure https://share.google/Dbl0F2cq2NkcsGeWG