I am not sure how to explain my situation alot of you probably gonna think I am crazy, I feel the same way. But I cant stop obsessing about my finances I keep opening new bank accounts, investment accounts, and credit card accounts then keep closing them because my mind keeps telling me it's not good enough. Like I probably opened 21 new credit card accounts last few years and closed almost all of them. This is what happens in my mind, I open new credit card/Account then my mind tells me this is not good enough I am missing out on rewards or that card has this fee so I need to close it, then I close the account and I open another one cycle again. It's like there is this voice in my head keeps repeating what if that is better, I should open that account. Because of this I made alot of financial mistakes its driving me nuts. It's like fear of missing out but with OCD. My brain works like this with everything I obsess about everything my brain wants everything to be perfect. This is why I hate choices, if I have to choose between things I go crazy. Somedays I will spend all day obsessing about it. I am just tired I feel like I am wasting my life. Any tips? I just want clear head and do fun things maybe start a business but it's really hard when all my focus is spent on obsessing. I know what I am doing is stupid but I just cant help it. it's like I am a puppet and someone is controlling me. I told no one about this I feel like no one will understand me plus I feel embarrassed. Sorry about the grammar English isnt my first language.

vanitas

Date posted: 5y

Perfectly understandable for you to be feeling like this. One thing I know from experiencing OCD is that obsessions can be very personalised, therefore feeling like no one understands is something that we all understand. The feeling of going crazy and having someone controlling you as if you are a puppet are honestly what I feel like all the time, so remember that you’re never alone. I think that posting this even though you feel embarrassed shows how strong you are already! I may not have good advice but I do know that sometimes you have to go through things that you don’t want to do to get to the place you want to be. Wish you the best!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I forgot to mention this story. I went to my bank to talk to the banker about something, as he pulled up my profile he saw I had crazy amount of closed accounts he was shocked. I had no words to explain. I left embarrassed.

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

Best way to get better is to see an ERP therapist. Check out the one in the app inside the therapist section. Only 25 bucks a session, since NOCD is doing therapy for health plans and is adjusting price initially

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

I thought about going to therapist but I just dont know to explain this to anyone in person I feel really embarrassed.

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

It’s very natural to feel embarrassed about OCD. Trust me, that’s exactly how I felt too. Best decision I ever made was seeing an ERP therapist because they specialize in hearing all the jacked up thoughts and helping you manage them. Nothing you could tell them is new, trust me.

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