Anonymous
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- 5y
AnonymousAnonymous
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My HOCD grew more because of me trying to be bi and different. I feel you so much!! Currently my brain obsesses over being gay like i have to do it
AnonymousAnonymous
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Is it normal to nit be as disgusted by the thoughts but just more uncomfortable
lucyolivia lucyolivia
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@hiiiii yes i 100% feel this , i feel as though because i wear plait pants and don't wear the typical jeans and a nice top that must mean i'm bi but it doesn't there's no connection between what i wear and who i love , and i'm uncomfortable with the idea of being bi aswell , like i know i wouldn't enjoy it but i don't ha the the idea
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@lucyolivia Same. But I'd rather be straight and happy with boys. Girls make me super uncomfortable
lucyolivia lucyolivia
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@lemondew i feel the same way like i'd only be satisfied with boys and i don't think i'd ever go out with a girl, but i still find girls pretty i just don't like thy em romantically or sexually
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lucyolivia Could I please ask u a question
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lucyolivia Omg same.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lucyolivia I can't imagine being gay and liking girls sexually and romantically. I find girls pretty too but I fear it's an early sign of me realising I'm gay. I'm still a young teen like I don't want to live the rest of my life being gay. I wish I was still the happy girl that just wanted to be with boys
lucyolivia lucyolivia
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@hiiiii yes sure
lucyolivia lucyolivia
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@lemondew i get this i'm not so much scared of being bi i just know i'm not and don't want to be
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lucyolivia Yeah. It sucks but we have to live with it until we can do something on our own.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@lucyolivia The thought of being bi made me uncomfortable even before HOCD. Not by a lot but it was pretty uncomfortable thinking about girls like that yk. I was happy with boys and satisfied with my life until the day which completely turned my life for the worst
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