GregJ
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bluerosebluerose
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I have thoughts like that sometimes to, like maybe I have killed my dad. I don't know how to make them go away, but what's helped me is just riding out the anxiety and knowing that I've been through it before and can come out okay.
GregJGregJ
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But the thing is idk if I did actually kill these people because it’s random people
bluerosebluerose
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@GJ7 That sounds rough, I honestly don't have any specific tips for that kind of thing. Maybe try confiding in a trusted friend, it really helps to have someone that fully understands your circumstances and struggles. Watching videos and reading sucess stories about my type of ocd also helped me, so best of luck!
mermaidmoonmermaidmoon
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These thoughts suck. I've struggled with them for almost a decade. But I promise you the more you exercise the exposure therapy the easier it gets. Just work on telling yourself "oh I just had an intrusive thought" "maybe it is true" but I cannot obsess over the thoughts and move on. The first couple of months of exposure therapy were some of the scariest times of my life. But just keep practicing accepting the thought and moving on and I promise you when these thoughts come up like you will be able to relabel them and move forward in peace . The only way to be free is to not ruminate on thoughts. Best of luck to you and feel free to ask me questions ?
GregJGregJ
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You had these kind of thoughts?
mermaidmoonmermaidmoon
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@GJ7 Yes! I would go random places and see random people and think that I did something wrong and I'll never know if those people are okay because they are just random people I don't know. It's all a part of ocd. Treat these thoughts like any other intrusive thought. I know how scary it is and how isolating it can make you but these everyone gets these thoughts it's just our ocd that makes us think they have meaning. Stay strong!
GregJGregJ
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@mermaidmoon So you just relabeled the thoughts?
mermaidmoonmermaidmoon
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Yes and if they kept worrying me I just did expsosures where I told myself "well maybe it did happen" "maybe I snapped into an alternate universe and did something bag" although these thoughts bring distress at first the more you meditate on them the less scary they become because our brains snap back into reality. It took me a long time to get the courage to do those exposures but now when I get one of these thoughts it's so easy for me to relabel and move on.
GregJGregJ
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Thank you hopefully I can get to that stage
mermaidmoonmermaidmoon
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You will. The fact that you are on this app shows that your are smart and you care about your mental health . Come back and ask me questions on this thread anytime. There are times when it feels like these thoughts control your life but with the right practice you can tell ocd who is boss. You got this
GregJGregJ
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Thank you so much. I’m in the middle of a breakdown right now and not feeling great but I’m going to go to bed and try tomorriw
GregJGregJ
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Hi again. I really want to stop listening to my ocd but I’m not sure how and I’m scared to do it
mermaidmoonmermaidmoon
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@GJ7 Hi! Just a note that I want to assure you I'm not a licensed medical professional but I am someone who deals with the exact thoughts you deal with. what worked for me is to tell the ocd you don't care and accept the uncertainty you feel. After you do this over and over you start to realize without a shadow of a doubt what is ocd and what's not. IStart small. The harm ocd can be really scary so it's better to start with little things. For example, I used to worry that I made a typo on an email and I would read it over and over again. The exposure would be to say oh well I checked it once so I'll send and move on. Maybe I did have a typo but I'm not going to think about it any more. If you have the scary thoughts like what if I did this or that. Then you say well maybe I did and allow yourself to accept uncertainty. Then time will pass and you will realize it's all been ocd. The exposure exercise on this app helps you do this by creating a hierarchy and starting with less intense obsessions.
GregJGregJ
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@mermaidmoon Thank you! I feel like I got rid of small exposures like what you described but I’ll try to say “oh well” when I get the thoughts or false memories
GregJGregJ
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@mermaidmoon I’m sorry for bothering you again but I can’t take these thoughts. I keep trying to do exposures but afterwards I fall apart. I truly am scared I killed someone
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