Addie976
- Date posted
- 5y ago
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah I have a similar thing.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Oh yeah. It's really really bad.
Avb37Avb37
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yea I have it too :( especially today for some reason
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Ever since I found out about some relationship stuff, I can't stop obsessing about how I'm not the one now and that everything is ruined and that it's all just horrible. I feel like total trash, like nothing will ever work out, I tried, but I can't make myself feel better and when I don't obsess about it I feel like kind of ok, but then it creeps back and destroys everything.... I'm so torn because my logical OCD side says there's reasons to be worried, bit then my more logical / rational non OCD side says forget it, move on. I can't figure out how to cope with this all.
Addie976Addie976
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This sounds really similar to mine. Can I ask what you found out.
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@Addie976 She dipped from the app because she was mad at me but basically she was dating a dude who was gay and having ocd issues about it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And I can't stop obsessing a ? on our relationship, I do not feel like I am enough, he only wants to watch gay por , and semi violent oral videos and it makes me so uncomfortable and yet it's supposed to be all sunshine and roses
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Well look if he’s gay and trying to cheat on you with other guys, Bi whatever then you Have every right to have ended the relationship.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@sebastian Thanks for the comment, yeah, when I saw that he messaged another guy that he used to see, j was deveistated.... But he claimed it was just for attention, no intention of actually meeting up, I'll never know which is the truth and that kills me. So now I can't trust him, but I want to and he cried and apologized so I almost left, but I didn't. I got sucked back in. And now every day I just think about this all, Taoist philosophy stuff was helping when I was single if I got stuck on a loop, but because he is the stimuli I can't get out of it and it doesn't help that he is not very nice about any of it either and he always tells me how gross my female part is and can't get through sex with me, but then tells me he only wants me and yeah it's so confusing and missleadi g, all his behavior has me in such a cognitive dissonance and I don't even know what I think, so then j kust worry and worry and obsess and obsess about it, doesn't help that I have nothing but time to do this right now. Oh gosh it's so painful being with him, I never felt like I wasn't enough for someone before just because of my gender.
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@savva Um he’s def gay and shouldn’t be making you feel bad simply because you’re a woman like tf break up with him and let him go back to fucking dudes
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@sebastian Thanks for that, I needed to hear something like this. Super appreciated! Makes me feel like I'm not then the only one for thinking that, because it is in fact not right, I'm always self doubting.
Avb37Avb37
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You have to end the cycle and the thought spiral by ripping off the band aid and exposing yourself to your fears. But, you can do that slowly. If this is a “bad relationship” or whatever, you are strong and you can survive it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It is ruining my life
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And it's so bad because I was obsessed with him at first, but now it's just the obsession of worry, there was too many questionable past things from him, but more importantly there has been to many things that have happened since learning things that have made it near impossible to stop worrying. Oh God it's so bad.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And there's no affection , the reassurance I would need to feel like it's hopeful is way out of the reach of what is reasonable from any person.
Avb37Avb37
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Hmm can you expose yourself in baby steps, like watching movies or tv shows about this topic? That’s what I try to do. I find I avoid movies about love because of my OCD.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
So I'm stuck in the middle of being in love with my soul mate who is do anything for and wondering if everything is wrong and hopeless because of the facts, the facts show this is a bad relationship. But I'm dumb, so I believe that there's hope, then I just feel foolish, no point , it just goes on and on.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I found out that he has been gay for the last ten years before going out with me. And he wanted to stay in touch with all his ex booty call gay Craigslist Meetup guys.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I found out and ever since then I can't figure out of I'm being played by someone who I never will be enough for or if I'm just dealing with a really unhealthy person
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's all so disturbing
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
It's so upsetting
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Also you’re a girl so you have like way more options than a guy has (well a straight guy anyway) so I’m sure you can find someone who’s heterosexual or at least more honest with you.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@sebastian I thought of this, but I dedicated myself, I don't want to give up on someone, I don't know, I liked everything about him until I found out about the gay hookups. Then it changed everything.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I tried to erp myself with the disturbing finding of him n out relationship, but it just pushed me into the deepest depression, I think I went to far with trying to please him or erp about it, thinking k may be a bad person for not being more ok with his gay permiscous past, that back fired badly... And ending the cycle, I'm not even sure how to do that, he is dependent on my, so I can't even really do things to get my mind off of us for long because of that... Oh God.... Hey, thanks a lot for responding to me, I really appreciate that anyone would take the time out.
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Well let me ask you this, ocd aside do you think you can trust him or do you think he’s going to fuck random dudes?
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Also since I responded to your thing respond to my post, The one about the pure o.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@sebastian I think I can. Ugh.
sebastian sebastian
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Aye I’m sorry for offending you...
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