Ocdandme123
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- 5y
SignorBlancoSignorBlanco
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- 5y
But fr. Your curiousity doesn't mean that you are that.. curiousity is just curiousity... Dont let it own you.
SignorBlancoSignorBlanco
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- 5y
If it makes you feel any better. Iam technically a lesbian too. Girls are hawt
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
Are you saying that cuz you’re a straight dude? Haha and I know girls are hot. Never had a problem with admitting that before. I’ve experimented once and have made out with all my friends but I never liked one or wanted to be with one until stupid hocd and now I feel like I do. But I don’t want to. I don’t even know what’s real anymore.
SignorBlancoSignorBlanco
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 Yes ma'am, straight as a rainbow. Lol but ya I am heterosexualll dude. That sounds cool... I experimented with hot sauce before... Worth. But fr you know what's real. You can differentiate in moments of clarity. I moments of desolation like now ( I am guessing) you cmhave a lot of doubt. Don't change anything
HeelloHeello
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- 5y
I am mad like that but with me is pocd, I hate it so much.
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
Yeah I can imagine :/ hang in there!
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
Accept it. You are not your mind. Thoughts, feelings, and mental states are all temporary. Actions is all that matters mostly.
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
Everyone says to accept it but it’s so hard for me too cuz I’m afraid of I do, then it feels like it’s true or something
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 I did the same thing for months, years. You believe you are your mind. When in reality that is just simply another temporary thought and feeling that comes in that’s impersonal and completely separate from who you really are and your attention right here and now.
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 You just need to go on to the next stage, no matter how frightening thoughts and feelings get they are what they are and will subside.
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
@rukajp Thank you so much! I hope so!
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 I hope so too in my case. You are not alone.
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
@rukajp It does retrain your brain eventually. I used to obsess over getting hit by cars and it would make my day a living hell. Want proof? I litterally just crashed on my bike and went into the lane. And felt nothing. Not even a urge if the fear arised. I “fixed” about 24 obsessions after being diagnosed with severe ocd. But the fear is still there in about 3 more. We have to fix the root of it. We are not our mind. Cureing some of the symptoms will not cure the disease. You are strong and smart. But you are letting your mind use you.
Luke R.Luke R.
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 You know what my exposure is? My dad married a Japanese girl and I’m a 19 year old American living in the middle of a small town in japan. Litterally alone. I’m gonna goto medical school when I can here. It’s been so hard but boy does it teach you how to accept Litterally everything. You sacrifice your family, friends, self, respect, freedom, even your own language. Your not alone you got this.
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
You just contradicted your own statement - you just said you want to be straight, so you can’t want to be a lesbian
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
It just feels so real at times
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@Ocdandme123 I know I feel I am riddled with STDs because I had conjunctivitis and conjunctivitis can be caused by STDs It feels irrelevant that I had negative std tests and that the optician said I would have it elsewhere Mine feels real too even with tangible proof
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
@uwotm8 I can relate to an extent! I went through a period of my life where I was getting tested non stop because I was just so scared and felt there was no way I didn’t have one. It sucked. And I am sorry you go through that. We are all facing battles. I know ocd is the doubting disease so obviously it can feel very real or else it wouldn’t be called that. It’s just hard when it feels so strong. It’s hard to be rational ya know
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anonymous00981
- Date posted
- 25w
I feel like this is it
I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
evasprog
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- 13w
I feel like it’s getting worse
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June21!
- Date posted
- 10w
Please help
I feel like I want to be lesbian. I want to cry. I gave into compulsions and I went on lesbian TikTok. It feels like something I want to try and do and that I’d be happier. Why is it so real. I don’t want to be lesbian but I feel like I’m pushing down the truth. How do I stop giving into these compulsions and feel better, I can’t do this anymore. I don’t even remember being straight or liking men. I hate this.
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