Hospitalization fear - I can’t get over the “what if” aspect!

Hi :) My hospitalisation is going ok :) there are a lot of rules and regulations I wasn’t aware of. Like, I can’t bring anything with a cord or draw string of any sort etc. Yeah I was suicidal unfortunately. My OCD got so out of control I’ve snowballed into a deep depression. My psychiatrist wants me in hospital for a month minimum. It’s not all bad. I’ve told my work I need at least a month off, and so they’ve got someone to fill in for me until I get back. Legally they can’t fire you for being ill. And I also live a fair distance from the hospital. My family had to drop me off and drive to visit. If I haven’t improved soon my psychiatrist is transferring me to a hospital in Melbourne (Australia), which is a 3 hour flight from my home. Don’t let the thought of hospitalisation worry you. It’s there to help you. We can’t control what happens to us, but we are in control of what we choose to do about it :) All the best!!

I have been afraid to tell people about my thoughts before I knew what OCD was. I thought for sure I was going to be locked away forever, but once I decided to spill it, they knew exactly what was going on and helped me. I never was hospitalized, as that is a fear of mine too... but therapy worked wonders

I’m hospitalised at the moment. Maybe I could help somehow? d a i s y

You are? Were you suicidal? ?

How is your hospitalization going daisy? CrispyMan- what concerns you? I’ve done partial hospitalization and it was a positive experience

WorriedDriver: Stigma, I’ll lose my job, I’m already a bad procrastinator so I’ll be even more behind, I don’t have a car, so I’d have to rely on my family to drive me from the hospital, which would be 1-3 hours away... Also the fact that I know I’m not a bad person but have those doubts, you know?

While yes there is stigma attached, you don’t have to tell anyone that you are at the hospital and if you do you can say you have a chronic condition which has had a complication requiring hospitalization. Your family would much rather drive you to get the help you need feather than have you suffer YEARS in silence. Why would you lose your job? You could tell them you are having a medical problem requiring you to be in the hospital. People do this all the time and don’t get fired.

@d a i s y — I am proud of you for being so brave and being willing to do the hard things that will help you get better. I’m glad they let you have your cellphone though! It’s hard being out of your comfort zone but the experience is what you make of it. At first I thought I would have nothing in common with the people in my partial program but eventually I got to know them and even though they had different mental illnesses from me we could all come together on some of our common experiences