I haven't been officially diagnosed but I believe I have pocd. I have a therapist though. I have intrusive thoughts as bout my son. They cause anxiety and I have a bad habit of just ignoring them. Unfortunately though, there are also times I get aroused by these thoughts. I've also been pushing my son away because of it. I also had an incident happen last night that scared me and caused severe anxiety. My son was laying across my lap and I realized our privates were close to each other and I got aroused then anxious. Today my therapist suggested an ERP situation. She told me to go to a quiet room, preferably a bedroom, lay down and relax and think of my son hugging me and let myself get anxious then try to relax again. I tried but I didn't get anxious. Anyone have any advice that could help?

I pray every night for God to ease my thoughts, worry, and anxiety.

@Figuringitout I'll pray for you too. In Gods hands we are safe.

@Jesus saves Thank you

I think faith is a good thing to have! But you can't hope that jesus will cure everything! Sorry to be rude! You should start by confronting your fears and make them go away! We can pray and pray! But there is one thing in our hands! The fact that we suffer from OCD so it's in our control to cure it! Don't avoid your son/daughter look at her/him and see the reality! You love them your a women which was a mother! Nothing is bigger than a mother's love! So you know even though you were a pedofile you would never hurt your son! People who really are don't feel bad for hurting children or feeling attracted to them they just are!

@Figuringitout Your having a real crises! My doctor told me! People with OCD will never question things they are certain off! A pedofile does not questions it self they just are! How old are you? Maybe old enough to have had many heterossexual Relationships with grownups and you know what you like! That's why you have a baby! That's why you were pregnant because you had a natural sexual relationship! Your son will never be hurt by you! If you were you had already done it

@Figuringitout People don't find out they are pedofiles that late! People define their sexuality about 18 years old and that's it! So that is just your head creating reasons not to be happy

Ok thank you. I just was afraid it meant something else.

Everyone with OCD feels that way! Your not alone believe me!

I thought telling yourself you would never do it was a form of reassurance which is bad.

But I do say that sometimes.

@Figuringitout Say to yourself the facts you never had attraction for babies before why would you now have? Specially with your son! It doesn't make sense

That's good see! If the symptoms dissapear with that oil! That means your not a pedofile and it's just an anxiety issue! I would never imagine a pedofile using this group he would probably laugh at all of us! And wouldn't understand the empathy we have with live issues