Please help me figure this out I remember when I was in 11th grade I had my first crush on a girl. I would say she was my first crush. because I would always love to go to school just to see her face lol . I always was so nervous on the bus ride to school. because I knew she rode the bus just like me . I would want to go to school just to see her . Long story short I never got the chance to tell her how I felt about her because my social anxiety. I start watching Porn a lot in that's when I got this Sexual Orientation Ocd . I don't really know what I want right know .when I did have that crush on the girl I just was attracted to women and girls . Now that I've got this SOCD stuff I fine man attractive but I don't wanna do anything sexual with them I just find them. P.S I'm a girl

Username: AsnkuAsnku

Date posted: 4y ago

I am just the opposite. I mean yeah I did admire some girls but I just wanted to look like them nothing more but I always did he crushes on boys and I wanted so bad bf. I was boy crazy. But now with this SoCd it’s feels like my brain has changed and I hate it

Username: MakaylaMakayla

Date posted: 4y ago

I totally understand I always had crushes on girls I just wish I could told my crush how I felt maybe this could have pervent me forming having this SOCD

Username: dietcokedietcoke

Date posted: 4y ago

for a long time i struggled w what to call myself and was so anxious about labelling myself and doing it correctly. i felt like i was attracted to boys and girls so i called myself bi because i needed the label or else i "wasn't real". but it's been a couple years now and i've been trying to practice not absolutely needing a label, especially if it doesn't feel right. what i've been trying to tell myself is that if i like someone, i'll know. so putting restrictions on it doesn't really matter. i know that that's easier said than done especially w ocd. but i hope it helped a little and that you feel better soon!! :)

Username: MakaylaMakayla

Date posted: 4y ago

Thank u?

Username: ThreeLittleBirdsThreeLittleB...

Date posted: 4y ago

Maybe you’re gay maybe you’re straight, you can be with whoever you want to be with. I came out as bisexual and I’ve never even been with a girl before. Sometimes I wonder if I’m even bi, but I don’t react to the thoughts with anxiety. The point is not to respond to the what ifs with anxiety. Maybe you’re attracted to them maybe you’re not. No big deal though. Tell yourself it’s okay not to have a clear answer. Live with the uncertainty. Everyone wonders but not everyone stresses.

Username: MakaylaMakayla

Date posted: 4y ago

Thank u , your so right . Way before I had SOCD I been knew I was gay though . Because my crush that I had in high school I never felt that way about person are a boy .

Username: prakriti

Date posted: 5y ago

It's not about hocd but can someone help me with my sexuality. Okay so i was in an all girls school and an all girls college. I rarely got the chance to interact with boys except for my coaching classes. It's like in the past i had dozens of girl crushes and a very few guy crushes but if i ever had to imagine myself being intimate with,it was mostly boys. It's like i clearly remember that i fantasized about boys but i don't actually remember if i ever fantasized about girls. My mind is telling me i had. I had a very few guy friends so whenever we had a meet over i always wanted the guy's attention and not those girls. I don't know what kind of crushes or attraction i had for those girls but i always considered myself straight because even if i had a few guy crushes like 2-3 it was only them i mostly fantasized about. Also i have never been interested in lesbian related stuffs. I have watched kdramas and have mostly got male celebrity crushes. My mind has constantly been telling me i am a lesbian cause i mean i did not have hocd when i had those girl crushes but if today i imagine myself getting intimate with a girl to check if it affects me i get anxious.

Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

Okay so I have been struggling with HOCD for so fucking long. I never felt like I had crushes on boys growing up but I wasn’t attracted to girls either (this was through 5th grade). Until 6th grade hit. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had the thought walking up the stairs and it was “You’re lesbian.” And ever since that thought was there and I fought it I have been dealing with all types of OCD ever since (been going on for 7 years). And only this year I found it was OCD. But it’s hard because I don’t know if I’m actually gay or I convinced myself I’m gay because I gave up and gave in. Now whenever I see I pretty girl I feel tingling. And I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a lesbian so I look up pretty pictures of girls with their boobs out and I loved it. And I wanna make out with a girl so intensely. But then at the same I don’t wanna be in a relationship with a girl and I wanna marry a guy and I just desperately wanted to be like by a guy. But I get so horny whenever girls are in bikinis and stuff. But I have OCD and I’m so confused.

Username: 🤎🤎

Date posted: 3y ago

I genuinley can’t do this no more, I just want someone to listen and understand- I have started reading stories about girls realising they were gay from a young age and stuff like that and I match some of the symptoms. I used want to talk to “the cool girls” in olde years or if I got any attention from them I’d be buzzing. However ever since I got ocd I realised maybe it’s cos I like them? however I never fantazized about anything sexual or romantic it was genuinley like me wanting them to be my big sister or something. I’m so confused rn idk what to do and now I feel like I’m in denial and it’s making me think all the boys I think I’ve liked I haven’t :-(

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