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She probably has deleted it, ocd will make you fixate on things that seem like life altering threats. She probably hasn’t looked at that email since you sent it maybe a few times after that. I’m sure she is busy with her life, kids, family, schedule, bills. She’s not focusing on that email. You shouldn’t either. Life happens and if you reached out for help I’m sure she cares about you. It’s hard to not have control of what stresses us out especially if it involves trauma. But you will be okay and that email is not as important as the emotional response you have about the email itself. Let yourself be upset, acknowledge your discomfort and allow yourself to accept that you can not control all outward stresses. Allow yourself to release this from your burdens. I’m sure this has caused you anguish but know you will be okay.
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She is single. I understand that she is probably busy, but it doesn’t take that long to do.
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@I eat boys What if you reach out and she doesn’t respond or she says no, you’ll be under more stress. With all the love in the world I tell you as a friendly human to let it go for your own sanity. ?
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@ThreeLittleBirds Thank you, but it bothers me so much that I’m ready to vomit :(
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@I eat boys It’s more about the stress of not having control I’ve been there. It’s okay to feel sick over it it’s a normal emotion but if it’s causing you panic you have to know it’s ocd forcing you to fixate on it. It’s been 2 years that email is not going to affect you and if it does you’ll deal with it. Don’t let yourself be consumed over something you can not control. Even if you ask politely you won’t be able to watch her press the delete button.
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Chances are she deleted it a long time ago. If you’re still close to her, you could ask, but remember that it’s a temporary fix. The best thing to do is work with your therapist on how to handle these obsessions.
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If u can explain the situation to her and you think she will understand then I think it might be fine (again I don’t know the situation) but if it was 2 years ago it’s probably so lost in her inbox she probably doesn’t have it anywa
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Do you happen know how outlook works? I’m hoping that they automatically delete emails after 2 years. But again I have no idea.
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Even if she deletes it, it still lives online on some server somewhere. This would seem weird to her likely and I think it’s overstepping. This is OCD, not a legitimate concern. Do your best to deal with the anxiety. Some ERP with scripting may be useful here. Write out the worst case scenario and read it to yourself 10-20x a day for a week. See if the anxiety associated naturally dissipates. It will likely seem waaaaay less important later on in your life.
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Hey, what exactly do you mean by overstepping?
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@I eat boys It seems pretty controlling to me. Especially when I think we can all tell that this email has likely already been deleted or is archived and will probably never be revisited or even thought of again. Don’t let your OCD win on this one. I know you’re anxious, but when you’re not eventually, you’ll wish you hadn’t reached out and feel embarrassed.
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@pureolife I feel embarrassed asking about asking if I should or not. This post was yesterday and I do feel a shit ton much better after getting some rest, although I’m glad I took it to NOCD first to get it off my chest.
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@I eat boys *asking about if I should or not
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@I eat boys I’m glad you took it here first too! And great job resisting long enough for the anxiety to subside and clarity of mind to reappear.
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Me and this guy have been talking off and on recently. I’ve known him since middle school and we used to talk in 8th grade and in high school. We used to be in a relationship. It started back in January of 2017 at my classmates 15th birthday party she had that year and him and I danced with each other, and we developed feelings for each other and dating. He put his arm around me too that same year. Then in high school we were together freshman and sophomore year bcuz we texted a lot and had classes. We didn’t talk or were together at all junior year. We both moved on and he got a new gf that year. Then in senior year him and I started talking again. I want to reach out to him to get closure, since things left off confusing. does anyone have any tips on how to go about this? because I still have feelings for him. If this helps him and I are both 22.
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Ok I need any and all advice 😭 please help. I’ve been with my boyfriend for over 2 years and feel deeply connected and happy and in love with him. My ex and I were first loves and on and off basically for 5 or so years until I met my current bf. During that time we both were toxic and back and forth and he did some things that were really hurtful. We never really had an “ending” or any actual closure to anything? I just kind of started talking to and liking my current boyfriend. I saw my ex a month ish ago at the bar and wasn’t very nice to him. I was like hyper aware of how I was behaving around him to make sure he didn’t get the wrong idea. I know he has had a really hard time moving on from me. Since then I feel like I have not been able to stop thinking about the past and am questioning a ton about my feelings. I do have ROCD, and I don’t know if this is solely because of that or a mix of that and the emotional loose ends? I don’t know. But I’m feeling such an urge to text him this whole paragraph I’ve drafted about closure, how I don’t even need him to respond, but I just need to get some things off my chest. I feel SO conflicted about sending it. I do not want to rekindle anything with him, but it’s just the principle of texting your ex that makes me feel like I am betraying my boyfriend now. Yet it feels like it’s weighing on me so much - and I’m like is ocd involved? I just don’t know if I should send the text or not. If anyone has been in similar situations or has any helpful advice I would really love and appreciate some because I feel so stuck.
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