Guys, I feel like I am depressed tho. Like actually. When my mom hugged me I didn't even smile. I have had no like expression all day. I feel like shit. At home mom goes to work early and comes home late. Then it's only me my little sister and my dad. Who does everything? I fucking do. I clean, do the dishes, make sure my sisters eat, make everyones bed, puts up games when we play, watching my sister to make sure dad doesn't do anything, and am nice to them. I don't know what more I can do. I feel so much stress every fucking day. I don't tell anyone this but.... Yes I fucking cry everyday, every night. I am just a fucking kid and I do shit like I'm a mom. I haven't told much people about this. I have only told maybe 1 person but... When Kaige( my ex)called me a hoe and everyone was making that a huge joke, I did something I shouldn't have. I cut.i cut myself. I felt I deserved the pain. I deserved everything. That I wasn't worth it. Nobody cares. I let myself hurt for what other people have done to me. And right now at home. I feel like nobody appreciates me. nobody cares. no body knows what goes through my head except me

God cares. A lot. You mean the world to him. I promise, it's true.

I'm sorry

It's really Appreciable that you do all the housework Remember ,you don't anyone's apprecuation except your own Love yourself and appreciate yourself That's the best way to feel happy

Could you talk to your dad about it? or mom? You can’t put that on yourself-your parents are doing what they are supposed to. Yes you are responsible and strong, but you are also young. It is not your job to take care of everyone. Do you have any friends you could talk to about it? A teacher or friend at school? And your ex sounds like he is going through something. I doubt you are a hoe and even if you were that doesn’t give him the right to say that. Keep your head up and try to only let certain people’s opinions of you matter (I know it is easier said than done).

And the cutting...Please, please don’t take it out on yourself. I have been in that position but now I am a year clean. It can become an addiction. I know it may seem like what you deserve but sweetie, no one deserves to go through that type of emotional and physical pain. If you ever feel those urges again try to spend time with your sister or write down your feelings. That saved me-writing in a journal. There is nothing like pouring out your feeling on a piece of paper. You are beautiful. You are strong. You are amazing. You are brave. You are enough. You have so much worth. Keep reminding yourself that you matter because you do. Stay strong and message me if you need to talk to anyone or anything!

If you feel you are going to hurt yourself, call your emergency services or go to the hospital! We love and care about you! Not everyone would take the initiative and do things that need to get done around the house. That tells me your a special kind of person who is caring and loving. Don’t lose site of these amazing attributes! You will do great things in life! And Kaige sounds really mean and self-absorbed! You do not at all deserve that negative energy in your life. You deserve someone who will make you happy and love and care about you like you love and care for others. They will come, sometimes we just have to wait a bit to find them, but it’s worth it!