- Username
- Lina
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Its like.... for example: say you met a new co-worker, they are friendly, nice, helpful. So obviously you like that right, because they are good and easy to work with. But then you get confused thinking... do I like him? Is he helping because he has a crush on me? Maybe I love him? And then you get anxious because you don't know whats real. Thats ocd hijacking your simple respect for a good person.
Can it create false feelings though? Like it feels like you do like them and it's scary. I feel like I need to come out like im just trying to be like everybody else with hocd cuz I don't want to accept the truth. I feel different.
Basically ocd can twist thoughts and feelings. So you might be thinking you’re being rational about something but it most likely is ocd; if it’s causing you to over think or worry.
Intrusive feelings are real too.
I'm sorry its been so hard Lina... It will ease up eventually though, just remember that
Thank you
Absolutely. I think being ocd when we feel anything good, our brains like to take that feeling as far as humanly possible! But genuine attraction is very obvious when it happens, like if you were genuinly attracted, people around you would be nudging and teasing you and saying things like... you two should date! I don't think you would hold back as well. If you are having trouble with thoughts regarding your sexuality, try adjusting your thinking pattern from being, am I straight or homo, or bi? so simply being open to who ever is an amazing enough person to deserve you.
I understand where you are coming from but I don't want to be bisexual or be with women. I feel like i have no choice though and im feeling these things and it feels so real. I want to die. Im so sick of living my life. I just want to get through my day like a normal person
It’s so weird how OCD just comes about with no explanation, out of nowhere. My issue has been feelings. I have moments of hyper focusing on feelings, trying to figure them out, and it’s exhausting. Logically, I know that what I’m going through with the things happening in my life (relationship ending that was abusive, my father just getting diagnosed with dementia, etc) would make anyone feel the way I do. But I keep trying to fight my feelings. “Normally, old me” would embrace them and let them be. Ever since my OCD returned, I can’t help but fixate on them and stress even more. It’s almost like my emotions and the way we are as humans in my mind has become even more of a problem than the problems themselves. Can anyone relate? I am doing my best with ERP. I definitely helps. But I’m still waking up not feeling like myself and it hurts.
Does anyone else feel like OCD is asking you to ruin your life and make decisions/things that you don't want to do because it's "what I secretly want"? It feels hard to even know what's real anymore.
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