This is Rizwan Hanif, i am in 37 th year of my age, suffering with OCD since 2009 approximately. Taken Paroxetine for 5 Years and upto 50mg approx At start paroxetine made some difference but still i was struggling to recover, tried many other herbal treatments but not recovered. Near about three montha ago i quit taking Paroxetine and surprisingly it didnt effect noticeably but not recover either. Its about 10 years of OCD, it ruined my life, quiting paroxetine has not much noticeable effect, its like same as i was taking so i am not taking it Hoping that may i will find some solution of it. 10 Years of my life ruined.

Which type of ocd you have

I dont know the type but its about some religon thaughts, Its like i am eating something and and obsession comes in the way that the food i am eating will give my body health and energy and that energy i will use for very bad thing (the thing i cant explain) It is example, but in reality its not during eating but in disturbing in almost every act The thinking invloves are religious, if these are not religious then i can overcome But invlovening religon force my tp do some compulsions Sometimes i distroys the thing or act what i done during obsession and tries to do it again without obsession

Its very complicated

Religion base thoughts include blasphemous content?

its like that

I am very brave person, i dont care of anything or the peoples, i live my own style But its the religon who stopped me for 10 years

Now what are the problems in which things you take tension

Its also about Halal and Haram

It come in my ways in many types

So you must avoid haram it is necessary according to religion

You must stay on halal path

I am in the halal path, but you know sometimes i go very very deep

Due to ocd?

there is OCD but also thinking too much in detail Lets say, thinking Halal and Haram is a seprate thing but OCD is also there.

What actually happens is, When i start doing something which is special or which means to me some bad obsessions come in the way When this happens i feel bad and tries to do that act again without obsession. Lets suppose i am going to call someone related my job and start picking my phone to dial the number and obsession came in the way, my mind will start thinking if i call with this bad obsession then the start of my try to call for job is wrong and if i will get the job then the job will also be wrong and then the salary will also and then whatever will eat will also be wrong and so on. So what may i will do to avoid this trail is that i will may cut the call and call again or may i will try to avoid the obsession at start or during call by making compulsions I am laughing now to tell this stupidty, i know that the bad obsessions are not my intention but still i am unable to avoid this behavior May be its very old and i made habbit of it. But there is also some type of stress in my mind almost all the day when i am not sleeping. Most of the time this stress is one side of the mind, sometime left side sometime right side

Okay no worries I can understand it's due to ocd you have to write good aspects of things that you are going to do like making a call for job then first write it's good aspects and made a call and while making call if any negative thoughts came then show yourself that written positive points it's difficult but you have to do it

And these bad thought are not your intention you nothing will happen and nothing will be wrong your salary etc