Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

This is Rizwan Hanif, i am in 37 th year of my age, suffering with OCD since 2009 approximately. Taken Paroxetine for 5 Years and upto 50mg approx At start paroxetine made some difference but still i was struggling to recover, tried many other herbal treatments but not recovered. Near about three montha ago i quit taking Paroxetine and surprisingly it didnt effect noticeably but not recover either. Its about 10 years of OCD, it ruined my life, quiting paroxetine has not much noticeable effect, its like same as i was taking so i am not taking it Hoping that may i will find some solution of it. 10 Years of my life ruined.

nunu

Date posted: 5y

Which type of ocd you have

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

I dont know the type but its about some religon thaughts, Its like i am eating something and and obsession comes in the way that the food i am eating will give my body health and energy and that energy i will use for very bad thing (the thing i cant explain) It is example, but in reality its not during eating but in disturbing in almost every act The thinking invloves are religious, if these are not religious then i can overcome But invlovening religon force my tp do some compulsions Sometimes i distroys the thing or act what i done during obsession and tries to do it again without obsession

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

Its very complicated

nunu

Date posted: 5y

Religion base thoughts include blasphemous content?

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

its like that

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

I am very brave person, i dont care of anything or the peoples, i live my own style But its the religon who stopped me for 10 years

nunu

Date posted: 5y

Now what are the problems in which things you take tension

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

Its also about Halal and Haram

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

It come in my ways in many types

nunu

Date posted: 5y

So you must avoid haram it is necessary according to religion

nunu

Date posted: 5y

You must stay on halal path

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

I am in the halal path, but you know sometimes i go very very deep

nunu

Date posted: 5y

Due to ocd?

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

there is OCD but also thinking too much in detail Lets say, thinking Halal and Haram is a seprate thing but OCD is also there.

Rizwan

Date posted: 5y

What actually happens is, When i start doing something which is special or which means to me some bad obsessions come in the way When this happens i feel bad and tries to do that act again without obsession. Lets suppose i am going to call someone related my job and start picking my phone to dial the number and obsession came in the way, my mind will start thinking if i call with this bad obsession then the start of my try to call for job is wrong and if i will get the job then the job will also be wrong and then the salary will also and then whatever will eat will also be wrong and so on. So what may i will do to avoid this trail is that i will may cut the call and call again or may i will try to avoid the obsession at start or during call by making compulsions I am laughing now to tell this stupidty, i know that the bad obsessions are not my intention but still i am unable to avoid this behavior May be its very old and i made habbit of it. But there is also some type of stress in my mind almost all the day when i am not sleeping. Most of the time this stress is one side of the mind, sometime left side sometime right side

nunu

Date posted: 5y

Okay no worries I can understand it's due to ocd you have to write good aspects of things that you are going to do like making a call for job then first write it's good aspects and made a call and while making call if any negative thoughts came then show yourself that written positive points it's difficult but you have to do it

nunu

Date posted: 5y

And these bad thought are not your intention you nothing will happen and nothing will be wrong your salary etc

MyMia

Date posted: 23w

OCD

Good morning to all. I have OCD and have had it since high school. However, I was not formed diagnosed until 2003, when I was 45 . I have a psychiatrist and Licensed therapist, and have been on Zoloft/sertraline ever since. Currently I have to have cataract surgery in a few weeks and I am very anxious about the whole thing. Of course this has been a trigger for my OCD and dealing with it the best I can. Any thoughts ?

Yoooastro

Date posted: 7w

Zoloft question

Hello last year I had gone thru a very rough time In my life where I needed to be put on Zoloft 50mg around march 2024. I was diagnosed with anxiety, depression and OCD. Ive been suffering from OCD since I was like 11 and depression since I was 19, but I never sought help until last year Im 27 because I knew I needed it to help me get thru life. I was on 3 months on Zoloft and I went to a trip to Miami which honestly helped me so much, I honestly attribute that trip to Miami in healing me more than the Zoloft it self. I met my current girlfriend there. After coming back I felt like a new person. I still kept taking the Zoloft 50mg until late April (2025) this year when I decided to tapper down to 25mg by my self without a doc recommendation, I didn’t feel anything during the month of may this year until like may 30th when I woke up in a panic and I felt like I was back at square 1 before I started Zoloft. Mind you ive been thru some life changes, I recently graduated RN school and my gf moved in with me. Ever since the end of may I’ve been very anxious, my OCD is on high gear and my depression too. I went back up to 50mg I’m seeing a new doc, my questions is has anyone gone thru a similar situation? If so what helped you and how long did it take you to stabilize ?

ocdnomore1

Date posted: 6w

How abou you?

I suffer since 10 - 15 yrs from specific fears. It was years that my OCD constantly wanted to be checked if I have HIV or not. I had a lot of sex and I thought this is normal. But I ruminated in my backhead about and was testing like 5 - 10 times a year. After the test I felt everytime so relieved. In Corona I was addicted to porn and even I lost control and was watching pretty hard stuff. I was chatting with a girl and we fantasized about really disturbing things. I never wanna meet her and for me was sure it's just kinda onlinestuff. I was in a relationship 3 years now. And I lost fear of HIV. But then came Morality OCD, Real Event (this chat) and after some times POCD. This combination was knocking me out, I felt like the badest person on earth. I did everything wrong and searched for relief and reassurance. It put me to the point of suicidal. I never ever hurting somebody, but my brain was making me a monster. I had to quit the relationship because I just couldn't give her what she deserved. I was in a clinic for 3 months. And we tested medication with ERP (before I took escitalopram for years). Anafranil was working first, then too many side-effects. I tried even without meds, but was so depressed. Now on sertralin for 5 weeks, but only 2 weeks on therapeutic dose 200mg. And wow, now I really feel so confused in the brain. I feel like how big my OCD became. The specific thoughts are not anymore, BUT it sticks on EVERYTHING atm. It's delusional how it feels in the brain. I really hope so deep my brain makes finally a reset and I need to wait it out. I could live with OCD for a long time but the last 1-2 yrs it took absolutely everything. I remark that POCD doesn't stick anymore like before but my brain is now constructing a very bad future because of past mistakes (that I all discussed with family, friends for relief over and over and over again). So it's like my OCD is now Real Event (The sexchat) again. Anyone was on the same point in life?

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