Keep having gay dreams and I either wake up crying or wake up really uncomfortable and confused. I saw someone in here say that lesbians only watch straight porn which I know is completely false, but now I keep having dreams that I'm witnessing a porn and focusing on the girl. I've never had dreams that I wasn't in before this. I watched porn once by myself when I was 14 and I'm 21 now. I get turned on by these dreams because sometimes I wake up aroused, but it's not a happy feeling it makes me feel kind of nauseous. Please help.

Those are all questions I obsess over. I have no idea. I don't want to be gay because I don't like girls that's the only conclusion I've come to. ?

@hateocd123 Not that I dislike girls

It's just not for me. I don't like girls. Feminity doesn't vibe with me romantically and that's just as ok.

@hateocd123 your mind is just playing tricks with you like it always do

@teiran No, I don't think so ? that's not part of my obsession

Lmao. All jokes aside, I do. I had a really weird genre of death OCD for nearly eight years where I was obsessed with decomposition and it was horrific. I'd have nightmares about finding rotting people. In real life whenever someone in my building died and I was aware of it I'd have a mental break down because the mental images of them decomposed and the imagined smells (sometimes not imagined) would freak me the hell out. Unfortunately one neighbor of mine found their friend a couple days later after they hadn't come out for a while and she described what he looked like to me and I went weeks seeing what I imagined his face to look like everytime I closed my eyes. I have really creepy dreams with demons in them, those are horrible too. I have sleep paralysis kind of often and hear really creepy stuff when I do. I know it's not real, but still makes me really anxious and sad. I think they stem from the same obsession. Death is part of life, I get that, but OCD doesn't want to let it go.