I'm feeling really shitty! I'm so afraid that all of a sudden I turn into a pedophile! And that I'll have to see cp! And I'll need to go see a therapist for sexual perverts! I am so afraid! Not even the fact that pedophiles find out they are when their about 16 relaxes me! It only makes me scared that I haven't realised yet! I really like kids and love spending time with them but not in a sexual way! Just in a mummy way! I would love to be a mother and I'm afraid that I'll never be because before it I'll will turn into this huge monster!

Shanny

Date posted: 5y

I agree and im freaking out myself right now. I just want to be a light in this scary time it makes me feel better. Best of luck to us :) if you need to chat im or everyone is

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

Thank you very much! I'm even afraid to see cops thinking omg I'm a pedofile their going to arrest me just because! And than I feel bad for having said I'm one! It's so fucking messy! And it doesn't make any sense because I'm twenty years old so if I was supposed to be a pedofile I would already know it! But yeah it makes me fucking scared!

Shanny

Date posted: 5y

If I manage to be with he is my first ever relationship that adds to the nerves. I'm scared. But I knwo you're right its just im afraid because right now im overweight too and I try to hide my feelings. It shouldn't do thia but Ahhhhhhhhh!

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

I think you should tell him your fears and explain him that you have OCD! It will take a lot of pressure out of your shoulders

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

I'm almost had anorexia and I felt in love with an obese! So weight doesn't define love! Believe me! Everyone told me he was fat and people told him I had no butt or tits and we still got to be together! Nowadays I've a different boyfriend who is supper hot kinda of model hot and he knows about my OCD he could be with any girl he liked but he still choose me! Everyone has a reason to love the other person but you only see the bad ones I suppose your boyfriend doesn't look at you like your a overweight!

Shanny

Date posted: 5y

I felt the same way. I was afraid to be with children and I want my own. To me it seems like you aren't one because they just accept it and perve on. I know know how you feel though. Right now my ROCD is acting up and It freaks me out

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

Did it go away? Because I had Rocd than it changed to Hocd than I went to psychologist and he got me scared! So I created a knew OCD which was being afraid of having Pocd, than I had Rocd and now I have Pocd! It's so fucking stupid and hard

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

Thank you very much for your words really! I don't believe I am! I would never look at a kid that way! But OCD can really scare the shit out of us

Shanny

Date posted: 5y

If it makes you feel better. With my ROCD i rwally like my friend but im too afraid to ask also I keep thinking what if he likes his ex? They broke up 10 months ago. Im afraid.

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

That happened to me! I told myself everyday that if he wanted to be with his ex he could! But he chooses to be with me so there's no reason to fear! Enjoy the relationship while you have it! And repeat to yourself everyday he is with me because he loves me!

Shanny

Date posted: 5y

Not boyfriend just friend :( idk what to do people tell me to tell him how I feel but but I think because this was an intrusive thought for while what if it comes true. I am so confused on love. Im dreading Vday

Mimi123

Date posted: 5y

Ok with friends is harder! Try to make him notice you if you're not sure you love him! And flirt a little bit to see how you really feel, if it bothers or not

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