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I can relate to #3
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Do you have this weird unnatural but natural feeling in your stomach whenever you think about being with the same sex? Idk why I have been having these thoughts...I really hate them
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Those are pretty standard obsessive thoughts for HOCD.
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100%
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Idk but when I was small I had a very close female best friend who I really cared for and spent a lot of time with, my mind has been obsessed at how I really liked her but never realized it. My mind also has an obsession with compulsory heterosexuality... Like were those some early signs of being bi or gay?
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@lemondew One thing OCD is linked to is messing up our memories. Hell I once thought I like my best friend (sheesh) and I got over that thought. You gotta find what works for you and look inside you. If you know you don't want to be gay and that it creeps you out then it's the time to accept the thoughts and know that thoughts don't translate into reality.
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@angad77 I did and it worked but unfortunately only for 2 days like I wasn't worried about it at all. Ive always noticed that my lips just frown in pure disgust but my mind still goes "you like girls" and "you're not straight". Kind of hurts tbh
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@lemondew I understand. You need ERP. I did it myself as my family doesn't support me very much. Do some YouTube research on HOCD. It gets better, believe me :)
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@lemondew Our mind is like a 3 yr old. It loves to mess with you and just like you'll deal with a kid, you gotta let your mind play. When you try to stop it, it's gonna fight back I promise you that. Let it play let it show you your worst fears and you'll know that it's playing with you and you are the one who is the dominant force here not your mind.
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@angad77 Yeah I tried ERP and it worked for a while until my worst fears translated into dreams. Ive also researched on YT about HOCD and I was almost sure I was straight. I recently came to know about compulsory heterosexuality which kind of scares me. These days because of loss of attraction, now it feels good to think about a boy but at the same time my mind doesn't allow me to think about them. Im sad and desperate at this point
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@angad77 I see. Seeing it like a kid makes a lot of sense.
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@lemondew For me happiness and positivity worked the best. If nothing is working out then please go see a therapist. Believe in yourself and if this makes it any better, I believe in you too!! All the best!
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@angad77 Whenever I remember women with compulsory heterosexuality and what they had said in their posts about it. My mind has this nagging thought that I relate to everything they've said though the things don't make sense to me at all :(
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@angad77 I'll try to become better in my own. My mom is low-key toxic and gets mad whenever I ask for support for anything so seeing a therapist is almost impossible in her presence :(
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@lemondew All the best !!!! :) And Pro tip, stay positive!!!!
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@angad77 Thanks :) I'll try to
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Yes but i also get a feeling in my chest/stomach area ehen i see an attractive guy so i may be bi or gay
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Oh yeah that's one thing Ive had an obsession about too
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@lemondew Does/did that happen tp you too?
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@advocate109 Yeah it does
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I hate them too and yes I get an uneasy feeling every time I think of it
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It's been getting worse day by day though I'm pretty sure I'm straight. Do you still have your attraction to the opposite sex? I have it really minimally at this point of time :(
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It comes and goes, no where near where it used to be tho
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Same. I still imagine about being with the opposite sex naturally but my mind is obsessed with the idea that im forcing myself since I live in a heteronormative society
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@Chamomile Same
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@advocate109 You experience all of these things too? How do you deal with them? If you have any methods
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@Chamomile ???
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@Chamomile I ususlly try to do my erp or mindfulness exersizes
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@advocate109 Ah I see, ERP has gotten rid of anxiety and all but my attraction is gone so I guess I have to do more ERP and meditation. Thanks for the tips :)
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Yeah it's a bastard of a disorder
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I just feel lost at this point. I sometimes just wonder about how I'm going to survive in the future. This damn disorder has literally ruined everything for me :(
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I feel the same way brother we just have to take it day by day with this beast. It tried to ruin everything from me, my education, my career, my social life, my health, my sexual relationships. But I'm slowly getting it back.
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I feel like I'll never enjoy being with the opposite sex at all. Like I think about it naturally (I always have) and kind of makes me giddy inside but my fear of having compulsory heterosexuality because of living in a heteronormative society is killing me slowly :(.
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Having no attraction to the opposite sex is killing me slowly, like i feel I'll never enjoy it. I have other mental shit to deal with too and then this thing came along ugh
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What does that mean ?
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Like thinking of opposite sex makes me feel good but I have fear of compulsory heterosexuality. If you don't know about compulsory heterosexuality, please don't look it up
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I won't look it up
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Good please don't
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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What’s your experience on: Losing opposite gender attraction? And, False attraction to same gender? I have both and I feel like I don’t know who I am. I can’t parent or be a husband due to the mass panic and anxiety. Just wanted to know if anyone has had both and regained theirself?
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Can hocd create mental feelings or things that resemble inclinations Without a physical response?, but such as arousal and mental attraction, for example, I have so ocd and I'm afraid that I might like women.So, in the last period, when I look at photos of girls, especially beautiful ones, I feel something strange or attracted,sometimes their bodies.And I'm confused as to what that might mean, it's like sexual orientation, is this from me or OCD produced by it?'The feeling is like the feeling of discovering new inclinations and this breaks me, I just want to reconcile with myself in any sexual orientation or identity, but I just can't feel comfortable and reconcile with the fact that I may like women or it may happen in the future.And I have these feelings that telling me messing around the girls would be fun, and I feel something like desire, but I never come to terms with this.. I'm going to be 15 years old, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, I don't have the right to determine who I am now because im young, and I shouldn't continue to dream of marrying a man..My mind keeps reminding me of the fact that I'm a teenager and the likelihood that everything will change is high, but right now, I'm not asking for anything but rest.I want to love myself and reconcile with her.
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