Anonymous
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- 5y
js94js94
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- 5y
I can relate to #3
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Do you have this weird unnatural but natural feeling in your stomach whenever you think about being with the same sex? Idk why I have been having these thoughts...I really hate them
pureolifepureolife
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- 5y
Those are pretty standard obsessive thoughts for HOCD.
angad77angad77
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- 5y
100%
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Idk but when I was small I had a very close female best friend who I really cared for and spent a lot of time with, my mind has been obsessed at how I really liked her but never realized it. My mind also has an obsession with compulsory heterosexuality... Like were those some early signs of being bi or gay?
angad77angad77
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- 5y
@lemondew One thing OCD is linked to is messing up our memories. Hell I once thought I like my best friend (sheesh) and I got over that thought. You gotta find what works for you and look inside you. If you know you don't want to be gay and that it creeps you out then it's the time to accept the thoughts and know that thoughts don't translate into reality.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 I did and it worked but unfortunately only for 2 days like I wasn't worried about it at all. Ive always noticed that my lips just frown in pure disgust but my mind still goes "you like girls" and "you're not straight". Kind of hurts tbh
angad77angad77
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- 5y
@lemondew I understand. You need ERP. I did it myself as my family doesn't support me very much. Do some YouTube research on HOCD. It gets better, believe me :)
angad77angad77
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- 5y
@lemondew Our mind is like a 3 yr old. It loves to mess with you and just like you'll deal with a kid, you gotta let your mind play. When you try to stop it, it's gonna fight back I promise you that. Let it play let it show you your worst fears and you'll know that it's playing with you and you are the one who is the dominant force here not your mind.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 Yeah I tried ERP and it worked for a while until my worst fears translated into dreams. Ive also researched on YT about HOCD and I was almost sure I was straight. I recently came to know about compulsory heterosexuality which kind of scares me. These days because of loss of attraction, now it feels good to think about a boy but at the same time my mind doesn't allow me to think about them. Im sad and desperate at this point
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 I see. Seeing it like a kid makes a lot of sense.
angad77angad77
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- 5y
@lemondew For me happiness and positivity worked the best. If nothing is working out then please go see a therapist. Believe in yourself and if this makes it any better, I believe in you too!! All the best!
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 Whenever I remember women with compulsory heterosexuality and what they had said in their posts about it. My mind has this nagging thought that I relate to everything they've said though the things don't make sense to me at all :(
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 I'll try to become better in my own. My mom is low-key toxic and gets mad whenever I ask for support for anything so seeing a therapist is almost impossible in her presence :(
angad77angad77
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- 5y
@lemondew All the best !!!! :) And Pro tip, stay positive!!!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@angad77 Thanks :) I'll try to
advocate109advocate109
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- 5y
Yes but i also get a feeling in my chest/stomach area ehen i see an attractive guy so i may be bi or gay
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Oh yeah that's one thing Ive had an obsession about too
advocate109advocate109
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- 5y
@lemondew Does/did that happen tp you too?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@advocate109 Yeah it does
js94js94
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- 5y
I hate them too and yes I get an uneasy feeling every time I think of it
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
It's been getting worse day by day though I'm pretty sure I'm straight. Do you still have your attraction to the opposite sex? I have it really minimally at this point of time :(
js94js94
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- 5y
It comes and goes, no where near where it used to be tho
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Same. I still imagine about being with the opposite sex naturally but my mind is obsessed with the idea that im forcing myself since I live in a heteronormative society
advocate109advocate109
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- 5y
@Chamomile Same
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@advocate109 You experience all of these things too? How do you deal with them? If you have any methods
advocate109advocate109
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- 5y
@Chamomile ???
advocate109advocate109
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- 5y
@Chamomile I ususlly try to do my erp or mindfulness exersizes
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@advocate109 Ah I see, ERP has gotten rid of anxiety and all but my attraction is gone so I guess I have to do more ERP and meditation. Thanks for the tips :)
js94js94
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- 5y
Yeah it's a bastard of a disorder
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
I just feel lost at this point. I sometimes just wonder about how I'm going to survive in the future. This damn disorder has literally ruined everything for me :(
js94js94
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- 5y
I feel the same way brother we just have to take it day by day with this beast. It tried to ruin everything from me, my education, my career, my social life, my health, my sexual relationships. But I'm slowly getting it back.
AnonymousAnonymous
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I feel like I'll never enjoy being with the opposite sex at all. Like I think about it naturally (I always have) and kind of makes me giddy inside but my fear of having compulsory heterosexuality because of living in a heteronormative society is killing me slowly :(.
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Having no attraction to the opposite sex is killing me slowly, like i feel I'll never enjoy it. I have other mental shit to deal with too and then this thing came along ugh
js94js94
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- 5y
What does that mean ?
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Like thinking of opposite sex makes me feel good but I have fear of compulsory heterosexuality. If you don't know about compulsory heterosexuality, please don't look it up
js94js94
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- 5y
I won't look it up
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Good please don't
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- 11w
I have HOCD,pls answer and share your opinion
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Mt2019
- Date posted
- 27d
HOCD can anyone relate?
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