Internet related harm ocd false memory ocd symptoms Hello everyone i need advice, I was using youtube on my tv last night and i turned off the youtube app and turned my tv off and immediately had intrussive thoughts that i left a bad violent threatining dangerous youtube comment and when i woke up in the morning i immediately was scared that i didnt remember turning off my youtube tv off and was and still am scared that i left a violent threatening comment onmlm youtube that will get me sent to prison. This is the theme of my false memory harm ocd intrussive thoughts is the immediate fear after using my.cell phone or youtube app or playstation4 that i left a harmful violent dangerous threatening comment that will be traced back to me and i will be sent to prison for the comment,, deep down inside i never want to write violent comments ,, please can anyone help ,, i tried the stop sign technique , i read ali greymonds books on harm ocd false memory ocd , this ocd theme is very tough very painful,, i have the constant fear that when browsing the internet that i have left harmful violent threatening comments on the internet and that it will be traced back to me and i will be jailed for it. Very stressfull please any advice. Its painful cause i dont remmember turning off my youtube tv that night but i remmeber fear intrusive thought during that night about leaving bad comment and waking up with fear that i left a bad comment because i dont remmeber turning off the youtube tv and no memory of falling asleep. Its all distorted memory ,, i use cbd and medical marijuana daily to combat my mental pain of this false memory harm internet ocd symptoms

Thank you so much Star for writing back to me. ,, i feel a little bit better knowing that i am not alone in this mental struggle/battle. My ocd theme can change from day to hour,, another theme i battle with is at work or could be anywhere that i use a pen or sharpie marker. When writing i immediately have fears that i wrote violent dangerous things down on paper and that co workers will find it and trace it back to my handwriting and that i will be fired and sent to prison/jail/court for my violent Threats notes/Letters. Its false memory harm ocd with the theme that i wrote down very innappropriate dangerous violent threats and that they will pin point my handwriting to me and i will be sent to prison. Very painful false visions false images false thoughts. Its very painful when u wake up not remembering to turn off your youtube internet tv and you immediately get thoughts that you wrote dangerous violent threats on youtube comment board or somewhere online and that u will have cops come for u and u will be prisoned for ur threats very scary very scary. Its been 2 days and i still havent checked my youtube search and comment history to make sure i didnt leave a dangerous violent threat comment on internet, because i feel like i would get temperarory relief and another ocd attack will occur. Its a vicious cycle

@Russ1989 i know how you feel it can be really debilitating. i have a habit of leaving all of my tabs on my phone up, and never clearing my search history, but my ocd will make me think that what if i did search/comment something bad and deleted without remembering :(. it’s hard, but hang in there it will get better with the right treatment and time!

@star002 Thanks so much Star, i used to use the "Stop Sign Technique" and vision a stop sign whenever intrussive dilussional what if i did this ocd thoughts surface into my brain,, it worked and for years i didnt have severe ocd. But the Internet false memory harm OCD symptons came back like 2 months ago... its tough to Love myself when my mind becomes my worst enemy.. i downloaded books by Aly Greymond about harm ocd , false memory ocd and Ali Greymond says whenever you have an OCD though to remind to yourself that "This is an OCD thought and I choose to view this as OCD and i will not go into details of my OCD and to focus on real life" it still is very tough, the toughest is when you forget parts of the night before and wake up with fears that you wrote that bad violent comments on the internet. And i keep on fighting the thoughts to check my youtube internet history because i feel like it will only make the ocd grow stronger. Please @star002 please let me know what coping techniques you use to cope with your Internet False Memory Harm Internet OCD

@Russ1989 i listen to ali greymond and watch a lot of ocd video as well! it’s hard to cope with but i just try to practice mindfulness and meditation when it’s gets really difficult. i’m in therapy right now so that’s my best way to cope. just try not to feed into the compulsions as best as you can it only makes the thoughts stronger.

@star002 Thanks so much @star002 for your time and energy today. I am thankful for you writing back to me to give me a little bit more peace of mind that i am not alone in the internet false memory harm ocd battle ,, i use legal medical marijuana daily and Digest cbd oil daily to try to medicate and relax, sometimes it helps , sometimes it doesnt by making My memory worse and forgetting things cause cause ocd to be stronger cause you dont remember The night before and the gaps in memory Loss can cause ocd to stick in the moments of memory loss creating mental psycholigical fear that u did something bad and forgot about it .. but i keep just telling myself its intrussive thoughts ocd and i would never write anything violent harmful Threatening on the internet or on paper .... i keep telling myself when i am sober or when i am medicated on medical marijuana and cbd oil that i did not write anything harmful on the internet or on paper because thats not logical for me to write harmful comments ,, the ocd says i did but i keep on fighting mentally that i didnt. Very tough Psychological battles sober or medicated on medical marijuana and cbd oil still same Intrussive thoughts of the fear that i wrote violents comments on the internet. Sober or not sober.. still same ocd battle. I keep on telling myself its just intrussive thoughts ocd and when im on medical marijuana and when i am not that i wouldnt write harmful internet comments no matter what state of mind i am in. Thanks for listening to me @star002 please let me know if u have any thoughts about my struggles

i’m not a doctor so i can’t tell you what specific type of ocd you have. i’m starting medication soon prescribed by a doctor. but i think the best thing is to see an ocd specialist that could help you mange it, i don’t know if you watch chrissie hodges, but i know she does referrals for specialist that are around your area, so that might be helpful for you. if your not able to access it face to face, i heard that this app also has video chat talk therapy options with a specialist too! (i’ve never tried it) but i heard it was a cheaper/faster way for people to get access to the right ressources needed. hope this helps a bit.

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yes i’m glad i found this community as well! wish you the best of luck in your recovery!!

Thanks so much @star002 i think my other ocd fear is that medical marijuana causes poor short term memory and i have a constant fear that i will act on a intrussive thought while being medicated on marijuana and not remember it basically the fear that 2 nights ago i was medicated on marijuana and dont remember turning off my youtube tv and because i dont remmeber shutting off my youtube tv i have fears that i wrote a violent harmful threatening comment on youtube and dont remmeber it ,, but i keep telling myself this is all harm ocd/ intrussive thoughts that i would never do no matter what state of mind i am in,, i really really appreciate you @star002 for talking with me about my intrussive thoughts fears