I am a harm ocd sufferer,, i deal with constant fear and stress for many years cause of ocd. What is the lifespan for people suffering with ocd constant daily stress and depression.. i am 30 years old

My ocd attack happened last night i dont remember turning off my youtube tv and i opened my eyes and my tv was turned off and i got scared that what if i wrote a violent harmful youtube comment. And i went to sleep and been bothering me all day,, and i dont want to check My youtube history because it feeds into the ocd fear of leaving harmful internet comments.

Please check my comment above

@Russ1989 I have had this fear before too and I used to unfollow people when I got the thoughts now I just think about it and move on eventually it will pass. It might feel like it will never go away but it always does. Never seek reassurance and never avoid. Fear wins often that’s why we have ocd but that fear is false.

@lulu23 Would you agree that after reading my ocd struggle on the comments i left here that i need to continue to never check my online internet history to see if i left violent harmful threatening internet comments online ??

@Russ1989 Hey be careful not to seek reassurance that's a compulsion too

@Russ1989 Absolutely every time you have an urge to check and you don’t check you are fighting ocd. I used to delete profiles for fear I left a bad comment. Then I stopped and every now and then this type of ocd bothers me but I fight it and forget it usually very quickly.

@lulu23 Thank you so kindly @lulu23 it feels good to know that i am not alone in this ocd psycholigical battles,, my themes are tough especially the ones with lots of medical marijuana smoking daily causing me to have bad memory and my ocd flares up before i go to sleep because i watch youtube on my playstation4 and last night i forgot turning off my playstation4 youtube app tv Then immediately i opened my eyes and lost memory of turning off my tv a few Seconds ago. I then went to sleep with the intrussive thought that i left a bad violent threatening harmful comment on youtube, ,and i havent checked my youtube history today because i refuse to feed into the ocd fears of writing harmful comments on the internet ,, so @lulu23 definately this is good to keep fighting the want to check internet history For relief of knowing that a bad comment wasnt left cause that is doing compulsions and compulsions in Harm ocd/ false memory ocd/ pure O is bad right @lulu23 i really really appreciate your time energy and attention to help give me some peace of mind

@Russ1989 False memory was one of my biggest ocd themes it gets better so don’t give into ocd keep fighting hard I know you can do it just like I know we all can!! Stay strong have a good rest of your day.

@lulu23 Same for me!

Yeah i watch ali greymond you have ocd videos shes amazing

@Russ1989 I have Harm OCD so I can relate

@GJ7 Yeah i smoke medical marijuana alot to help me and marijuana weed causes bad memory problems and i was laying in bed last night and didnt remember turning off my youtube tv and i woke up and got scared with intrussive thoughts that i left a violent harmful youtube internet comment and it was scary feeling i went back to sleep and its been bothering me all day , i know i can check my cell phone to check the youtube history to feel better but i am refusing because i feel like that would be feeding the ocd monster

Im not currently receiving therapy ,, i dont have health insurance at the moment

@Russ1989 Ah okay! I would recommend the book brain lock! It explains OCD really well, also I think if you're from the US the NOCD team can help you with therapy:)

@Daffodil Is the NOCD team expensive??

@Russ1989 A call with them is free and then they discuss prices I think :) I'm from the UK so I cant access it sadly

@Daffodil Oooo. Yeah ok i will have to sometime soon,, do you have any mental coping techniques to battle harm ocd thoughts fears That you left a harmful online internet comment that will get you jailed.. those are common ocd theme that i suffer with

@Russ1989 I used to suffer with that theme actually! So much that I wouldnt join a forum like this! I think you have to recognise your compulsions and try to reduce them the best you can, like maybe if you're checking to see if you wrote something try and stop checking that sort of thing. Also a helpful technique is thinking MAYBE I wrote x, and you sit with the anxiety and eventually you feel less panicked and afraid:) of course its easy for me to say as I'm not in your position but trying to combat your compulsions will help, also really consider therapy with NOCD. Hope that helped!

@Daffodil Thank you so much Daffodil. I smoke legal medical marijuana and digest cbd oil daily to try to make me feel better from the pain of ocd intrussive harm thoughts ,, marijuana weed cannabis can cause bad memory problems, and last night i woke up and didnt remember turning off my youtube tv , i got scared immediately that i left a violent harmful comment on youtube and that i will be sent to prison for it. Very scary feeling when this happens physicially and mentally,, i then went back to sleep and was bothered with this intrussive thought all day today and i know i can check my youtube search and comment history but i refuse because i feel like this will give me temporary relief and that it will be giving more ammo to this ocd monster

@Russ1989 Great job not giving in! Now do something to get your mind off of it!

@Russ1989 Exactly, its great you're not engaging in compulsions !

@GJ7 Ok thank you ,, have you heard of the Stop Sign Technique ?

@Daffodil Thank you Daffodil yeah even with smoking marijuana alot daily and digesting cbd oil to try to take the pain misery away from the intrussive thoughts i have times of forgetting what i did 3 seconds ago cause marijuana can cause poor bad memory, which can make the ocd symptons tougher cause you get scared mentally like omg i dont remember turning off my playstation4 youtube tv and then you get intrussive thoughts that you left a harmful comment on youtube , i know i can check my youtube history but i will continue to refuse to check my Cell phone to see if i wrote down anything bad violent harmful. Its tough but i think i am better off in refusing to check my History on my Cell Phone for evidence of leaving harmful violent threatening comments

@Russ1989 No I havent!

@Russ1989 Its really good you're aware of the process

@Daffodil If you google search Stop Sign Technique theres a few things about it

@Russ1989 Thanks!

@Daffodil Thanks @Daddodil and what are you views on my ocd situation and refusing the check the internet history to see if i wrote something bad. I feel like it would be giving the ocd more attention by doing that

@Russ1989 Okay so checking is a compulsion, and when we engage in compulsions it makes the OCD worse. So yes you're right there:)

@Daffodil Okay thank you so kindly for you time attention and energh on here today , hope you are feeling okay today,, have you recovered from your ocd?

@Russ1989 Ah that made me smile thanks friend. The morning was tough but my OCD got better as the day progressed. I haven't recovered but I've had many periods of being symptom free.

@Daffodil Very nice to hear that your okay , yeah ocd can traumatize us. We gotta continue to be strong

@Russ1989 No I haven’t