I feel like my dog can sense the negative thoughts in my head. She was fine earlier today all over me and licking me and laying on my chest but a a few minutes ago she was in my room and kept staring at me and i patted my bed and told her she could come up if she wanted and she just continued to stare and i put my hand down by her and she didnt like me she just walked away. I've heard a lot about dogs being able to sense character and for me this has scared me into thinking she senses something that even I dont in myself. I'm so paranoid that I might be going insane cause of just that and irrational thoughts and instrusive ones and my entire body has felt hot all day idk if it's my anxiety or what but I feel like I'm losing it..

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

there is one youtuber who said her ocd is like an allergy, that there are days that are a flare up, this week has been like that to me also

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

Yeah I'd say that's what today's been, kinda a flare up in a way. The past few days havent been all too bad and I've been alright. Yesterday I smoked for the first time in about a week or so so that could've offset me from my meds and that's could've been part of the problem also.

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

I'm sorry to hear your week hasn't been the best, heres to positivity and prosperity ?

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

yes that is the hardest part, not the time or energy spent doing compulsions but doubting my mental health and thinking I am weak

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

but it is not, its just an illness

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

I would not complain and blame my body for being weak if I broke my arm

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

You're right, it's just hard for me not to doubt it because my brain constantly puts the focus front and center on that and it's hard for me to focus on much else besides just coping and going thru it.

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

I thought they could tell when someone is sad or anxious never heard of sensing someone is bad

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

She did the same earlier when I had a breakdown so idk, it's just something I've heard. It just made me feel like I was doing something wrong because no matter what I did she barely reacted. I may be overthinking today's been a horrible day for me and my ocd.

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

thank you so much :) it was a rough week but as I waited for it to pass the thoughts lost some of their power as time went, so it helps that they are not as powerful and resistant as we think they are

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

That's good to hear that they lost traction! It's hard to tell if mine have or not because when it comes on bad it's just awful, I'd say my most positive part of the day was being asleep because I didnt really feel anything and I liked it better that way. The intense guilt and feeling of thinking I'm crazy literally just took over me today.

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

me too, I find that walking daily helped and I plan on taking language lessons in an effort to put my mental energy and time into something else, I hope it will help

TwylerGuy12

Date posted: 5y

I've been working out with my dad but didnt today because it was an off day. I'm also in a drug abuse group 3 days a week for 3 hours a day.

hilaly

Date posted: 5y

oh I see, doing emotional work sometimes drain you a little, and you can get frustrated easily, you should go a little easy on yourself you already try hard enough, I try to remind myself if something challanges my ocd that zo already go through a lot because of something so I dont need to push too much with erp or my self-talk because I read on a book that even stopping cigarettes or sweets diminish your willpower because it uses your emotional sources to say no and keep yourself at check at all times, imagine how much our ocd takes :)

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